of cocktails and more cocktails

went to bintan island without much expectations because read on other people's blog that there was tar pollution on the beach. but upon arriving, there was nothing but spectacular. i guess being the 'jakun' me who always opted for the most affordable accomodation, it was great to experience a four-star treatment for once. we were served ice cold lemon tea and cold towel upon arrival which was very refreshing indeed, considering having to travel all the way from KL-Singapore-Bintan Island. we didn't even need to carry our bags to the room as they handled all that (though we couldn't tip whoever who brought the bags to our room because s/he was long gone before we even stepped into the room.

this is the view of the main area by the pool side. noticed there's not much people around? (the people started pouring in on the day we were leaving, perhaps for a seminar). thankfully it's not the holiday season. there's a lot of other activities to do here apart from swimming. also there's the beach just a short walk away.

our double suite. loved the colour scheme a lot. well nothing can fail when there's dark wood furniture and bright coloured walls to bring in the holiday mood.

we arrived in the evening so didn't really do much that day because too tired and hot anyways. but it was sure fun to have free flow of cocktails and mocktails at the bars.

the next day we did all we could. we went to do some archery and then to the beach. surprisingly there wasn't many people on the beach also. and may i say there wasn't any tar pollution at ria bintan. though there was a lot of warning saying that "jelly fish is present at all time", "the beach is steep", "no lifeguard on duty". i realised more people rather hang out near the swimming pool maybe because most of the guests came with kids. then did some swimming in the pool, while being watched by the hunky lifeguard (who was praticing his dance move for the programme later at night).

overall it was a very pleasant experience. definitely thanks to my parents who won this trip from their CIMB lucky draw thingy. even the food was excellent! so much choices to choose from. you know like for breakfast how you would normally get the continental breakfast (egg, bacon, sausages, toast, cereal etc), this one even has cream cheese smoked meat smoked salmon bagel, porridge for the asian inclined etc etc. and the fruit juices were all freshly squeezed, not those processed crap. even dinner and lunch time always consist of western, korean, japanese, indian, and various specialities of the day. and we get to meet the employees there as well when we shared a table while having meals. according to all of the whom we asked, they said that Club Med Cherating is one of their favourite. more authentic, and special. so i guess what i'm leaving you with is that if you're planning to give Club Med a try, start with the one in Cherating. you definitely don't have to fly there and take a ferry just to get there. more convenient and seemingly better. like one whom we asked how many Club Med has he been, he said he's been to more than 10 within Asia Pacific!

i'll leave you with the picture of eugene taken in the only place worth taking in Changi Airport.

how can someone be so insensitive

well...i was listening to the radio the other night. there was this programme called "flirty at 10.30" where they will try to hook people up on date. of course one party would initiate the asking another out and then the radio host will call the other person to see if they'll agree to it. so this time around, there was this gal called allison. she was going out with this guy for a few times now and wasn't sure what they were in the "relationship". when asked if they were already boyfriend-girlfriend, she said, this is what she wanted to find out. so they asked her, if she actually asked the guy this question and she said he seems to be not answering his phone lately *get the hint*? so when the radio host got hold of james @ the guy, they were asking him if he wanted to go on a date with this gal who he has been going out with? then he started freaking out, obviously saying no and telling them about why he's not interested in her (eventough they dated). AND MIND YOU, ALLISON IS LISTENING ON THE OTHER END!!! so he went on saying that SHE'S OUTTA THIS WORLD!... SHE IS TOTALLY BLA BLA BLA...SHE'LL SHOUT WHEN HEARING A GAL VOICE CALLING HIM...anything bad you can think of la. asked if he maybe wanted to say hi to her, he totally said no HE DON'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING GOTTA DO WITH HER and even THANKED THE RADIO CHANNEL IF THIS WAS GOING TO BE THE LAST TIME HE'S GONNA HEAR FROM HER! so when they finally got back on the other side of the line with Allison, she was speechless then she hung up...from her shaky voice it was so obvious that she was CRYING!!!

so tell me, how can someone be so insensitive? if he doesn't like her, eventhough they dated a few times, i'm sure he can just tell her maybe they're just not meant to be or something right? but he chose the cowardly way of avoiding her hoping that she gets the hint. obviously if she's interested in you, she'll try her very best to hear from you right? i mean if you really like this guy, you're just going to ignore the unanswered calls or unreplied sms and comfort yourself by saying, maybe he's just busy? to me, i totally felt upset for the gal lor! it's just as bad as breaking up with your girlfriend ON-AIR! so EVIL!!

*wonder what would you think the next time you meet a JAMES in your life. maybe he IS THAT JAMES! BEWARE!

** this is a totally biased post based on what i heard on-air. maybe the gal could be a controlling freak of nature but she sounded sweet and he is still at the wrong in my opinion!

i'm feeling emo and i don't know why. maybe it's too many jumbled up thoughts on my mind or is it just the effects of the hormones. it just makes me wonder...is this just the beginning...of more emo episodes to come. i hate it when i'm unclear of what's bothering me...i just don't feel right. if only i have a shoulder to cry on....

was waiting for food at (Korean) BBQ Chicken

random shots

tag-a-thon

I've been tagged by Jimmy

Game rules:
A． People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.

B． These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people. People who are tagged will be blessed and their wishes will come true in the future.



1.If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

this would depend on how much that person means to me...partially. there's reasons for things to turn out the way they did.


2.What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?

then maybe it's not meant to be...but you'll never know...timing is everything.


3.What will your dream wedding be like?

never really thought about that before...really.


4.Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

maybe confused is not the right word to use...of course we don't know what lies ahead so maybe more of ready to expect the unexpected.


5.What's your ideal lover like?

someone compatible. someone who accepts you for who you are. someone who can be there for you at all times. someone understanding. (this would require a whole post if i were to list down everything)


6.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?

being loved. but it's all about give and take. you can't just receive all the time.


7.If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?

it's not the end of the world...if it's meant to happen...it will.


8.If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

nothing i guess...i'm not the most daring person in the world and i'm not gonna be a boyfriend-snatcher, am i? perhaps unless you know that the other feels the same, then maybe?


9.Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?

tell me one person who doesn't feel unhappy once in a while.

10.What do you want most in life?

happiness.

11.Is being tagged fun?

me no likey tags. make me feel obliged to do it. and i normally will.

12.If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?

then he/she is not your best friend after all? but was if my best friend is a guy...?

13.Who is currently the most important person to you?

hmm...i really don't know...

14.What kind of person do you think I am?

who is "I"? the person who tagged me? lame-o! ehehe...u know i'm just pulling your leg right?

15.What is the most unforgettable thing/event in your life?

unpleasant events... heartbroken events... a tainted past.

16.If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do/how would you react

i don't think i'll fall for someone who doesn't know me. unless it's just a crush then it doesn't matter really.

17.Would you give your all in a relationship?

used to but not anymore...people learn from experiences...

18.If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?

i'm not good with decision making...i think i'll just let things be and see what happens...

19.What type of friends do you like?

nonjudgemental. honest. available. etc etc.

20.If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?

i'm too kind to play a prank on someone.

i tag whoever who's interested in doing this tag. hehe.

what we need is

it's my space

and i like it the way it is. you can just go around changing things the way it is. without even asking permission. so you're just thinking for yourself without thinking that you're intruding into other people's life. just a reminder that you should be more mindful of others, next time.

i'm in major need for wearing jeans. i wanna wear jeans! i miss wearing jeans! tried pair #1: too tight. tried pair #2: ok but not comfortable cuz jeans material is tough (not good for wound healing). looked at pair #3, #4: definitely not. i'm not saying that i'm fat that i can't fit into my jeans ok? so i guess i have to thank god for inventing tights. next best option but it's definitely different. i need my daily dose of skinny jeans, soon.

i think i need to get back to melbourne soon or else i'll just keep on buying more and more clothes. but at least from the bkk trip, i never feel like shopping in malls d. because i'll just look see look see and think it's expensive. nothing that's so special that's worth me spending the extra money. what's more the fact that the same RM30 dress is selling for RM89.90 in sunway pyramid. sorta proud of our buy until now. *grins

on another note, what is it with this trend of oversized bags? and i'm not talking about those that's big enough to fit a sweater, a bottle of water etc. i'm talking about those you see around nowadays which seems bigger than me! if you chopped me into pieces, i would definitely fit in it (just a metaphore). like those that you can take and fit all you need for a weekend getaway. is it that practical for everyday use? wouldn't it make it easier for snatch thieves to grab it off your shoulder? *puzzled

my grandma is the best

thanks for taking care of me this two weeks. though you added more to the already long list of restrictions, i still really appreciate you cooking for me seeing that i shouldn't be eating outside food. i guess this is really a blessing in disguise seeing that i'm able to spend more quality time with family.

while i'm at it, would like to thank those who visited me in the hospital and to marianne who brought me more entertainment right when you feel better. and to those who wished me. thank you. i feel loved.

current mode

current mode: missing my sewing machine. if only i had a functional one at home. wow, imagine how many softies i would have produced by now? seeing that i've been back in malaysia since mid-jan. could have a fully functional production line and new range by now. yes, i AM so free and bored. you would be too if you're stuck at home most of the time, eating bland food most of the days. but now that i've got my router, i should probably be starting on that journal paper i'm supposed to write eh? no more excuses...

everything happens for a reason

i've always said to people, "everything happens for a reason". i'm sure something good will come out of all these. but obviously when you're the one who's hearing all these, you'll be like "it's easier said than done". no matter how small the matter is, you'll be deeply affected, or at least i am. at one point in time, i actually thought to myself, i don't want to pursue my studies anymore, this is too much for me to handle. emotional breakdown. must have been cause by everyone asking, "so your studies how (discreetly intepreted as, are you still gonna continue)?". then when i was feeling alright, i tried to think, think of the possibilities. if i didn't pursue this dream that i have, this great opportunity with free education, what would i do? will i be willing to find a job here and settle down, what would i do? i came to a blank. i know for a fact i don't want to end up in sales or marketing. i don't think i'll find a job suitable for me at this point in time. what's more, will i be so lucky to get such scholarships in the future if i decided to change my mind? of course, the first reaction from my boyfriend is, "yay! that means you'll be back here for longer!". most of the times i think i'm alright, everything's going to be okay soon enough. in no time at all, it's going to be time to fly back to Melbourne. but when I think about it, doctor's not going to let me go back for at least another 2 months. he wants to monitor my recovery. but at least that's still better than the initial plan of keeping me here till August. yeah, i have to go for follow up treatment once a month but he said that i'll be able to arrange something in Melbourne after the first two sessions. at least it's something. though i'm gonna be delayed for another 2 months, at least i'm back here with family, hopefully soon with friends when i can start driving, eating and walking again, to hang out. sorry peeps if i haven't been calling you out, i'm not supposed to be hanging out at the moment.

happy valentine's day

happy valentine's! spread the love y'all!

to the new beginning

a new year. a new beginning. i was meant to announce that i've got the PhD scholarships! thank you melbourne uni for believing in me (my project). thank you department of medicine for my placement. so rest assured that i'll still be able to further my studies without burdening my supervisors or parents.

too many things to be done in such short period of time. was accomodating my family when they were here for my graduation. then right after graduation on the 17th dec, off i went on a road trip to sydney with eugene's family. all expense paid trip. i felt bad because they didn't let me pay for anything. but at least i was a good navigator when it comes to reading map and a 'portable' camera gal. always trying to help them take family pictures but always end up someone in the pic blinking! all in all, i had great fun! even got the chance to meet up with my childhood girlfriend, jane. it was nice chatting up with her, just the two of us. was wishing the night could have been longer. and thanks jane, for keeping your night free just for me, knowing that you actually had something on. and also for staying out so late eventhough you stay so far! i've checked on the map when we were leaving sydney, that liverpool is indeed pretty far away!

been busy packing up stuff and getting ready to move as well. didn't even get about to writing a draft for the journal my supervisor asked me to. now i also don't know what i'm going to do when i get in on the 2nd jan. hopefully he's not mad that i didn't do my homework.

then i'll be off to tassie the next few days for a week. soon enough, i'll be back in msia!

merry christmas

merry christmas and a happy holidays to all!

softies

softies in production! came upon this book in the bookstore, it caught my eye and it was love at first sight! then i went on to look for materials. because sewing machine is too expensive, i decided to choose the easiest looking one to make. scan template, enlarge, print, cut cut felt, sew sew sew. because it was handsewn it took quite a while. and thus born, morgan the monster!

then to my surprise when i came home today, eugene bought me a sewing machine!!! whoa! so i made another one with the sewing machine this time. though i must say, i had to spend quite some time understanding the functions on the machine before starting with another. but i'm happy! we decided to call this one, the ninja!

the happy duo!

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i've made like 4 now. ninjas in production! maybe, just maybe, you'll be lucky enough to get one of these weird and cute softies eh?

but i feel sick today. production is halted.

anxious

to find out whether i get a PhD scholarship or not. especially i just read an email that one senior in my lab got his scholarship offer already. it's the same one that i applied for which it says "application pending". i've been checking my mail like a thousand times a day! but actually, i think i'm just too keen to be independent. if i get the scholarship, then i don't have to rely on my supervisor to cover my expenses for next year. it's not like i won't be able to do a PhD or something like that. because no matter what, with or without scholarship, my supervisor has enough funding to support me. but you know, it will just make me think that i owe it to him. some more he will give me a top up scholarship regardless. where to find so nice supervisor you tell me. i hope i don't fall into the comfort zone to easily. else i might take things for granted. such a huge commitment ahead of me. i really hope i'll be able to meet up to expectations and responsibilities.

in slightly more than a week...

...my family will be here

...attending my graduation

...stop going to work for the shortest time

...go on a road trip to sydney

...so much is happening

once upon a time...

...i lost a toe nail


and now it almost looks normal...

when the internet is up and running

i'll be here online. online for as long as i can before it goes down again. though i don't exactly know what is wrong but at least it's rather easy to repair. must be not doing the proper thing though or else it wouldn't be down so often. maybe then i'll have more reasons to read more books. i just want to lay in bed and do nothing all day. i think this hayfever allergy thingy is starting to get on my nerves. when i wake up with a stuffy nose and watery eyes, i just don't feel like going to work. so i ponteng like the whole second half of the week. but i think i'll have to make up for lost time next week. cannot be so irresponsible do things halfway.

then i also have to look for potential new place to stay. this is taking up my brain power too. do you think it's better to get somewhere near the city, fully furnished but at AUD 200-300 more per month or somewhere which i might have to walk 50 mins to reach my campus (or 20 min tram - AUD 103 per month), need to get all furniture for house (cuz i already got furniture for room) like refrigerator, washing machine, sofa, dining table and chair, kitchen utensils,tv.

on the lighter note, i've gotten my results d. now just have to hope it's good enough to be considered for a scholarship. fingers crossed. trying not to get my hope too high because i know it's rather competitive and i think i'm just borderline. i really do hope i get it so i don't have to burden or rely on my supervisor's project funding. talking about project, i also haven't decided what exactly i want to do. i'm just too lazy! but it's good to know regardless of the funding i'll still be able to do a PhD. just think, if i don't get the scholarship, then it will be more troublesome in terms of re-enrolment. have to appeal for fee remission (don't need to pay tuition fees) then only can enrol, then only can make visa, then have to go medical check up, also health cover. sienz.

family potrait when my 'mum' came to melbourne.

ironic isn't it

my fav pic at the moment. but there's an irony if you look closely. where do you get this colourful candies from?

yes, eventhough i am officially on hols and should have more time to blog, my internet connection doesn't seem to be working the way it is. every other day it just gets stuffed then i lazy go fix it because my housemate still have exam. so never really online that much. weekend pulak go jalan jalan so never online also. ah. this is the life! if only it's not so darn hot!

everything new

i finally got myself that haircut. now my hair, looks nothing like before. you know you always go to the hairstylist wanting something different? this time, it's really different. and i'm liking it! my supervisor said "oh, i see you got yourself a post-thesis hairdo" and my senior said " someone took a bite out of my hair". so yes, deceivingly long but it's superbly short. no pics yet tho because i didn't have a camera.

went to have a early christmas lunch with the lab today. total of 20 people turned up. the whole lab, changing the tram to our destination, supervisor too! i think it's kinda cute, don't you? had japanese teppanyaki. it was plentiful and covered for by my supervisor. then we had a kris kringle. initially i asked myself "what's that?" then i realised it was exchanging of presents. you draw out a name and then buy a present for that person. i got chocolates. a lot of other people got chocolates too. i guess it's just something that most people will like. which i definitely do! there was christmas ornaments, photo frame, teacups, candles, book, vodka, wine, shovel !!?, necklace, wine, more wine and more chocolates! then we hung out chit chat exchange places and chat somemore. imagine, the whole lab is away from work on a wednesday afternoon. doesn't only end there, went for more drinks later!

til it came a time i had to leave, thankfully everyone else leaving too. it was already past 5pm anyways. then i went to look at the new digital camera i was eyeing on. and now, i have a new gadget! i just couldn't wait for a month, for my parents to buy it from malaysia. of course it's slightly more expensive to buy it here, but my rational was if i buy it here means i'm buying it with my own money (my parents does not contribute to my allowance or expenses here in any way because i have enough from the government and from working). another rational is if i work for 30 hours on my hourly pay, i'll be able to pay off for the camera. that's me trying to console myself for my splurge. but i'm loving it!

back from the land of pengpengpenguin

came back from the land of pengpengpenguin two days ago. though was literally living on the same island as the penguins. didn't went to visit them. no one was interested since most already went. so i missed out on coming in close contact with those cuddly friends. the trip was awesome! 10 gals and 1 guy. yes, that's the ratio of honours student within the St. Vincent's campus. and out of all these, only 2 of us are going to continue on with PhD, hopefully. as for the rest, there's too many options to choose from. med school. masters. research assistant. etc etc. we promised to keep in touch. we'll see how that goes. the student room will never be the same without the other four gals.

at the moment, enjoying the life of having nothing urgent to do. cleaning never seems to end. clean room. clean house. clean kitchen. wash clothes. wash dishes. so many boring things to do. since the rest are having exams. no one doing housework. don't need to tell you also you know where needs cleaning most eh?

bake. i like to bake. but i can't take pictures of what i baked today because my camera is sick. it has blurry eyes. now it can't see nicely. so it's rather redundant. hoping to get it diagnosed soon.

need a haircut. need a facial. fugly. too lazy to make appointment.

need more cash. to enjoy. woo!!

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cuppacakes! yum yum yummy!

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bad picture quality taken from sony ericsson w700i hp camera

over and done with

thesis is due tomorrow. have gotten it printed and all before i came back home today. that's it. i'm not going to look at it again. i don't want to have pick up any mistakes. the only thing i can ask for, if only their paper was whiter! i have an obsession with seriously white paper. not oath white but bleach white! anyways, it's still really good that the IT guys help with the printing. save us a lot of time and money in printing it. just need to get it all bound tomorrow! so exciting! whole year worth of work is gonna be determined by this one bound piece of work!

all the best to the rest who still have to sit for exams!

freaking

whoa. i think i just freaked myself with that countdown. what? 4 more days? feels as though i have more time than that? wonder why i'm not stressing out though. seeing that i still have so much to write. hmm...somethings not right. i shouldn't be as calm as i am.

current obsession

almost there but not quite yet

final honours presentation: 18th October
final thesis submission: 27th October
honours student retreat: 29th October - 4th November

is it home time yet? not quite yet.

graduation: sometime in mid December

now, is it home time yet? not quite yet.

quality time: til January

so, when will it be home time?

anytime before next chinese new year that's for sure!

my favourite idol

he's my fav from the start. hopefully he's there till the end. this is him performing another fav song of mine.

matt corby performing the blower's daughter by damien rice.

enjoy y'all!

Craze for Starbucks

today has been based on impulse. planned to wake up early to go have breakfast before heading to uni but was too cold, didn't want to wake up. so I slept till late. when I finally decided to get out of bed, crossed fingers, when into the shower and yes!! it's working! shh...I went through almost a day without shower. so I thought, better do something from home then go uni for lab meeting. checked mail, tadaa! lab meeting cancelled. woo hoo! now what? because I know I won't be doing work from home, it's too cold and dark inside the house, so decided to head off to my favourite place, Starbucks!

so here I am! supposed to be doing work but as usual. finding distractions even without internet. see see, Microsoft Word 2007 has blog post function. just testing it out. plus I wanted to blog about Starbucks. the one in the city has a mezzanine level and lots of comfy couches. i'm sitting here at my favourite spot with my cup of double mocha macchiato on my laptop in my vain attempt to do some work. in the mean time getting distracted with everything. great ambience, great view. well, generally observing people. mostly Asians hanging out reading or chatting or doing work. occasional Caucasians doing the same. some businessmen don't know talking about what. mostly people dropping by for a take away. very busy joint indeed.

I like doing work in Starbucks because I can have my favourite coffee any time of the day then sit here for ages trying to get some work done. even if I end up not doing much, I know it would have been more than what I would have done if I was home. plus they have abundance of plug points so don't have to worry your notebook ran out of battery. they actually have internet too but I don't want to pay for it. internet will just make me more distracted from work, don't you think? think I better get some work done or else it will be a waste of 5 bucks for my coffee.

 

Do try it, Starbucks Double Mocha Macchiato, it's yum be it cold or hot!

somewhat familiar

just had this very familiar feel while streaming some movie. it just sends tingles down the spine when you think about it. somehow this situation in the movie brought upon a sense of dejavu. sometimes i think i watch too much drama that clouds my judgement on what is real. anyhow it goes something like this. literally translated the situation is where two person who have been through so many obstacles in their life trying to be together, ended up not being able to fulfill their dreams because of just minor misunderstanding which excalated. i guess at some point in time everyone would have went through something similar. to me, this sort of situation seems to appear in drama or movie too often. so often that when it occurs, it just makes me wonder. wonder why does it get processed in my mind differently. my mind seems to put too much emphasize on it. perhaps it is a reflection of what happened in my life. personal connection. arbitrary.

what do you think is underground?

i wonder what's beneath the ground !? these are the flowers growing in our backyard. needless to say, we don't water them ever! nor do we fertilize them. but these flowers seem to grow beautifully! the red ones grew on a tree that used to have fruits that looks like peaches or apricots. now it looks like a cherry blossom tree.

spring is in the air!

once upon a fine weekend

i was so excited when i saw this restaurant! how often do you see someone with the surname KHONG, what's more a restaurant! =)

aren't they the cutest thing ever? the agouti one is super friendly while the brown one is super 'kepoh'. shy shy but want to follow people around. then when you try to touch it, it run away!

another cutie pie. i think it's a goat? but super fluffy! then also very curious creature, tried to climb up the fence to sniff people's hand!

chocolate heaven! one of the chocolates on display, too bad it's not for eating. it was for a chocolate handicraft competition. i voted for this one of course!

bendigo was once a mining town. so it's not surprising there used to be chinese people there. follow the money, people!

this is 'loong'. apparently it's like one of the oldest dragon in the world! but what is it doing in bendigo, australia?

sacred heart cathedral

one of the most amazing structure i've came across so far. perhaps it was because its size. majestic.

p/s: it was really hard to take a good pic considering i don't have a tripod. it's at night. it was freezing cold. and raining.

i hate my blog!!

argh! how i hate my blog! just went i find so hard for a nice template, it always get fcuked up. now can someone please design a template for me that won't go KO? pretty pweese?

how was your weekend?

well, my weekend was fulfilling! started off the day doing my laundry (yes, this is what people who don't stay home do) then decided to bake something so i baked apple loaf. almost finish one already! then i became home hairstylist for the second time! ok ok, maybe not hairstylist, home barber? ahaha! and this time around, i think it looks nice! can pass as amateur barber leh! ok, not on my own hair of course, on eugene's hair. he's been bugging me to cut it for like months now and i finally did it again. i dread it initially because the last time i cut for him it turned out rather funky! so, what else, went shopping today but as usual end up buying nothing much. went to footscray for random beef noodle soup craving and the plan was to walk around looking for a shop that is open where there's is a lot of people eating noodle soup. which we did managed to find a good one! yumz!! i think i could have ate another bowl (that's just what i think). rather cold day today but the noodles does help warm me up inside! now, prolly have to start cleaning my room a lil. no space to do productive work. ta!

celebrations!

i hate spam!

yes. i hate spam! you know how normal email service providers like yahoo or gmail will sort out those mails that they think is spam or junk and normally it's quite accurate except for the occasional friend's email getting lost in the pile. but i tell you, this university mail of mine, very stupid eh, i think got more junk mail that actual emails! i already set the security level to higher than normal and yet so much rubbish comes my way. i don't quite understand how does my unimail get caught in the network of junk mails anyways. not like i simply go use my unimail to subsribe to stuff or anything. i hardly even use it. so since i forwarded the unimail to my yahoo account, everyday i'm bombarded with ample of junk! junk i tell ya! and there doesn't seem to be anything i can do about it. i actually thought of sending an email to the IT people in the uni see if they can help me sensor junk mails but to imagine so many people wanting them to do that they would have been overwhelmed! guess i have to live with it until i leave melbourne university. the good thing is i check my email like a million times everyday since it's work or uni related, so i can just delete them as i carry on with my daily life. oh but think of it, if they ever sent me junk mails about job offer, maybe that will catch my interest? anyone wanna offer me a job? just email me!

i like! u like?

there! how is this one for a change? of course i just cut and paste most of the things from the original template because i can't be bothered or more like don't have the time to make my own. i can barely find the time to blog.

i think i must be too pre-occupied with sleeping! thinking of work makes me tired. when i tired i feel like sleeping. sleep so that don't need to think about work. see the vicious cycle? i'm beginning to think am i cut out to be in research? i may be good with studies, well, even that i'm not excellent but in the field of research, good doesn't seem to be enough. i'm "excellent" according to my supervisor. everyone in my lab likes me. i like being there too! really helpful and diverse personalities in just one lab. but do i really like what i'm doing? i think this must be the negativity talking. i hate it when the results is not what it's meant to look like. sometimes i think too much.

now now, let's think of the positives. i'm almost finish with honours. just another 3 more months and it's over! at least for this year that is. i admit i'm a slacker that's why i like this field. at the moment i can come in anytime and leave at anytime. if i had a 9 to 5 job, i don't think i'll be able to stand it! i'll have to have like 3 coffee breaks per day!

i need to be more hardworking from today onwards. my motivation to be great not just good. sometimes i put pressure on myself but this is what you got to do to achieve great things. i should still believe that the amount of effort you put into your work pays off at the end of the day. though it may not be always through but it is most of the time.

play hard, work hard!

temporary out of service

my...i'm so bad with the template and code and html stuff. so the background will temporary be in revision. now it's plain old boring background.

3 years and counting

happy anniversary my dear! though sometimes you may be the most annoying person in the world, it means something to be able to share our life journey together. if anything, we're growing and learning all the time. i used to be one of those people who says i like you for who you are but i think in a relationship you have to learn when to adapt. when to evolve. when to give in. the funny thing is that we tend to learn each other's habit. name callings. expressions. at the end of the day, not knowing who started it! and i like it whenever you surprise me with those little things, those little things that i mentioned once upon a time ago and you still remember. yet i still doubt you think what i do for you is special. since you can't even remember the important events. you may not be the most romantic person in the world but i guess you just have a different way of ticking.

but you're still the worst housemate i ever got! but because i'm so kind, or perhaps, i can't stand the mess, i clean up after you. should not pamper you so much, you know? after become habit eh. three years, is that long? does time really say it all? to me, it doesn't. there's still so much to learn. there's still so much we could improve on. sometimes you just want to be naive and think you'll just get into a relationship and it'll be prefect the way it is. how often do you get that? i'm sure there's always ups and downs. though it's my bad that i always remember the bad things clearer but i would definitely say there's more ups than downs at the moment.

stuff it.

stuff it. i'm not good at writing and all sorts. i seriously don't have creative juice flowing within me. no wonder i'm not an artist. or an architect. or a pianist (or in my case, electonist maybe?) or any other sort of thing that needs creativity. i like art-y stuff. i love them all. but i'm just not good at any. i admire those who can, those who are, i really do. sometimes even envious at their abilities. wonder what i could blame on me being the way i am? perhaps i'm not good at writing because i don't read much. if i don't read, i don't stimulate my mind often enough so i won't have the ability to think, to analyse situation impromptu. or maybe i'm just so dull. so dull and boring that i can't seem to find excitement in life. things that are worth writing about. but of course i still think it's me. because if i'm creative, if i'm capable, i should be able to turn those things that past me by each day into something interesting. if i read enough books, i'm sure i'll eventually get lots more ideas and inspiration.

any mocha lovers out there?

are you a mocha lover? if you're not, you're missing out! now i'm gonna try a lame attempt to convince you to like mocha.

coffee lovers say that coffee is meant to have the hint of bitterness. if coffee is taken sweet...there's not really a point to take coffee then would there? but then what about frappe and all that? hardly bitter one? what about iced coffee? traditional ice coffee got ice cream one...so also not bitter wat?



chocolate lovers normally like chocolate, solely. they have a hot drink not because they need the caffeine. but then sometimes chocolate can be too sweet right? and there wouldn't be much option to change the level of sweetness right?

but i love both, so maybe that's why i opt for mocha. chocolate-y taste with the dose of caffeine. not too sweet, not too bitter, just right. taste good hot or cold.

anyhow, even if you don't like mocha, it's your lost! but now the gals at st.vincent's, we're all loving our mocha! yay!

spotting fog/mist...

where can you see fog/mist?

• at genting highlands...only early early in the morning or maybe when's it's cloudy/rainy weather.
• at cameron highlands...but don't know now still as cold or not since i haven't been there since i was 10 years old.
• on the north-south highway...going up north...at wee hours in the morning...that's when my dad normally travel to balik kampung.
• when malaysia got jerebu...of a different sort
• during WINTER in melbourne...day...noon...and night...but then this is like a combination. eventhough foggy because it's cold but then still can smell smoky air wor...what does that mean? if so cold until got fog/mist how come can got smoke smell one?

there you go, the sign that winter this year is going to be cold. or it could be the fact that my house doesn't have good insulation. imagine how when u breathe, in the house, also can got vapour eh.

what's ur fav colour?

the greatest bunch!

i'm referring to our group of honours student at st.vincent's campus. i honestly think we're like the coolest bunch of students compared to those that are on other off-campus or on-campus locations! firstly, i would definitely say even though we're a much smaller group of students compared to other departments, we're definitely more close knit than others. especially the other four gals in the same student room as me, what's more two of them are actually sort of in my lab too! i think honours year has been great so far, with most assignments spaced out evenly and not too hectic, despite having to be in the lab or be around most of the days. i must say i must be one of the most slacking person of all! cuz i always come in late but i do stay back late when i'm doing some stuff down in the lab. other people their supervisor are sort of expect them to be there from 9 till 5. but my lab people, as long as you get your work done, no matter where are you it's ok. *grinz* hence the coming in late because i work from home late at night then next morning don't want to wake up! hah! did i say among the gals in the student room, i'm the only asian? so i'm really greatful that they treat me the same, just like one of them! we hang out, we have lunch, we go for coffee breaks, talk crap etc. etc. it does feel good to belong. like some of my friends because they're the only one in the lab, they don't really have people to hang out with, end up eating lunch alone, you know, stuff like that. of course i don't go and boast about how much i like my place la. what's more, i have a senior in my lab and she's doing Phd now so i always go bug her about stuff. ehehe...she always say "how come you all so happening one." i do always invite her to joint us but then i think she a bit pai seh. even though she senior but then she same age as the rest of us ma. but then she very hardworking so she doesn't waste time doing nonsense like us. ahaha! then got the RA in my lab, he's super super helpful! he moved his 'desk' from upstairs to the lab so almost all the time besides doing surgery, he will be on his workstation in the lab. always anything also go to him "michael..." "michael...". sometimes also pai seh every little things also go ask him for confirmation but then better confirm than do wrong right? i can't believe he's my mom's age! looks younger than that. also also, whenever i go over to the pathology lab for tissue processing and embedding, the people there very very friendly. always come and talk to me. ahaha..eventhough some of them i also don't remember their name but then still can chat! then i think they also don't remember my name so we don't ask and will not know forever! kidding! so i guess you can see that i'm quite happy where i am and i feel fortunate to be surrounded by friendly and helpful people. now the only think is...do i really want to be working on diabetes stuff for my Phd? if you get a project that you really interested in but then the people you don't know if you'll work well with or not for the next 4 years, is it worth while? Project or People? Project or People?

is it just me?

is it just me? it is just me who have close guy friends? is it wrong to have guy as close friends? do u think they always have utter intentions? but what if you've known them for years! do u think being friends for so long that they would still think that there's any sort of attraction besides being compatible as friends? i mean if there is in the first place and being so close would mean that that sort of behaviour would be told to each other honestly from the beginning. obviously, all sort of things would have to be cleared. or else would you have remains close if the attraction was not mutual? being able to talk about anything under the sky, being there in times of needs, is that wrong at all? does it mean that all you can have when you're in a relationship is each other? oh wait, if only i was in an all gal school. then of course i will have close gal friends! it's not that i'm saying i don't have any but it's the matter of compatibility i would say. it's just my nature. that people feel comfortable talking about stuff regardless of our gender. and i would love to think the same too. but what if it's too troublesome for you, would you still have close friends of the other gender? who would you choose? what would you do? it's just me. i just can't keep away from guys. hah! take that! and yet, i still care, i still care about what you think. even though it upsets me so much, so much it hurts. it is all worth it? why can't you just accept me the way i am? can't you see it's my nature...it's just who i am...

of cookies and cupcakes

when i have my own house...i wanna make sure it has a beautiful functional oven! i tried baking cupcakes with my malfunctioned oven today and it turned out to be more like cookies! nice and crunchy cookie top with cake-y bottom. what a disaster! i'm never gonna try baking with this oven ever again...why does it not maintain at the required temperature? i think this is worst than the microwave 'oven' we had last year. at least with the spinning plate in the microwave...the muffins would only get pulled towards the centre while it's cooking...but this one. temperature always gets too high...forcing me to keep opening the oven door. this actually affects the cooking time as well...and still ended up with crunchy cupcakes! cupcakes should remain cupcakes. soft and moist. not crunchy cookies. i got so frustrated at the end product...i threw it out...eventhough it pass for yummy cookies. hah!

p/s: now i think maybe that's a bit of a waste...since it was filled with nutella eh...too bad...too late.

does size matter?

among the cutiez

sunshine after the rain

i think that best describes the situation. it's so nice to know that not everyone is an idiot. it's so nice to know there's someone with a common sense. it's so nice to know that someone actually take their responsibility seriously. it's so nice that someone actually takes the effort to find out the cause of the problem. it's so nice to know that someone actually explained to those idiots of my situation. thanks to this someone, now i have my visa granted till march 2008. see, this someone is even considerate enough to make it till then so that i can have time to decide what i'm gonna do after i graduate. thank you so much! i cannot begin to describe my gratitude! i cannot begin to describe how grateful i am that you've saved me all those trouble in the distant future! thank you thank you thank you!

freaking unbelievable

it's freaking unbelievable i tell you! remember the stupid x-ray? well, it's back to haunt me for the rest of my life. i seriously don't understand what is their freaking problem! remember i said that the doctor said that my x-ray was fine? just some old scarring that who knows how i got it but it does not pose any risk to me or any other person. nothing that i can do about it and there's nothing to be done. now. because of all this medical stupidity, my student visa will only be granted till 4 september 2007! what the...! what's the point? and i went to the immigration thinking that it must have been a typo error since my enrolment clearly says till end of december...and they told me, "oh. because of your medical condition. it's only valid till then. and you have to make a new visa and undergo another medical examination when it expires...to extend for the remaining months"!! tell me...is that stupid or what!! so i have to pay another AUD 400 ++ for a new visa just for two months and AUD 150+ to go through another stupid medical examination at the same stupid place! i seriously can't believe it. it makes no sense to me at all...all i can do now is wait till anzac day is over and hopefully talk to the people i need to to see if this is reversible. all because of a stupid x-ray! super frustrated at all the idiots in the world right now...

i hate trains

why i hate trains? simple! because they are plain stupid. ahaha! although i hate them so much...i still take them because it's nearer to my house and it's faster to get to my study place compared to the tram. i hate trams too because travelling from moonee ponds to st vincent's in tram is way too long. it makes me dizzy because the tram keeps stopping. now back to why i hate trains so much. first of all, although i have the timetable with me i still tend to miss the train every now and then. if i come out late from the house of course i can't blame the train but there's this few times i came out just on time and i saw the train went off! no. it's not because i was late...it's because the train was early by two minutes! and it just left without me! then there are the times when u wait and wait then they announce over the PA "the train departing from platform 1 has been delayed by x mins. connex apologizes for the incovenience". there's another time they announced "the x:xx time train has been canceled due to act of vandalism". also sometimes they bring back out the super old trains with checquered sits and opened window! going through a tunnel underground with open windows! how cool is that? what about the times where the train is so so packed that you can barely fit in anymore but people still push their way in? i mean i can understand why they would do that because train only comes every 20-30 mins so if it was me, i would push too i guess? remember the saying "packed like sardins in a can" ? well i think this is much worse than that! because at least the sardins in the can still got water or oil to swim in but us taking the train during super super peak hours or when there's trains delayed, it's worst than being sardins in a can. i could hardly breathe just now. so so stuffy with all the tall guys around me. it's not nice to be packed up like that especially at the end of the day when ppl start to smell. no offense. i'm sure everyone does. coming back from work. so there. i hate trains. i hate trams. yet i have to take them. unless i have a car that is. ahaha!

what's with the new layout?

i'll tell you what's with the new layout! it was totally unintentional. i was just browsing looking for a new layout and how it would look like and the smart me forgotten to save the old template first. and not knowing that the new ones already saved! so i couldn't really be bothered to go try and look for my old layout again. hope you don't find it too much. ahaha! well, it's kinda nice i guess. bright and flowery. hmm...

what a week!

yes! finally got the first assignment out of the way! that five days of easter break was not even a break at all. cuz all of us had to work on our literature review which was due on friday. plus i was so smart to tell my supervisor that he's way lenient on us so he gave us a deadline to hand in a draft by that monday which i did...almost completed but worked my ass off and just almost managed to get the whole thing through...was too mentally exhausted by then. and all was good when it came back to me the next day with nothing but good comments. well, at least i know i was certainly on the right track and my easter break was well spent on my assignment. and and...this is the first time ever that i almost fully completed my assignment like 5 days before the due date! and first time ever i handed in draft copy! but yet in the end had to spend the next few days with the remainder of the paragraphs. and learned that i had to write an abstract too. and stupid endnote kept stuffing up! it was a frustrating period...but it's all over now! ahaha! well at least for two weeks i hope cuz no major assignments coming up for another two weeks! woo hoo!

and just in case any of you were still wondering about my medical condition...the doctor said it's all clear. but i'm still waiting on my visa approval though. even after approved i have to reapply for my working visa to finally get paid again. i have been working without pay for more than 1 1/2 months now. wow...when i finally get to claim back my working hours...i'll be rich again! as of now, i'm quite broke. i think i've been spending more but i just have no idea where's all the money have gone to. and no, i didn't spend it on shopping cuz i was too busy to go shopping. and no, not on movies too. no time. maybe also cuz i ate out more...no time to pack lunch...stay late so eat out. ahaha! but then how much can i be spending on food rite? and yes. no time to keep record of what i spend on hence the not-knowing-where-my-money went to. hah!

now all i can think of is. what should i be spending my time on now that i'm free!

i wanna watch movie!

i wanna go shopping! [but no money now]

i wanna bake cheesecake! [just baked today, cooling off for the night]

i wanna clean my room!

i wanna do my laundry! [which have been overflowing from the laundry basket]

i think i should just take a rest now...all the other things can wait. all i want now is to go out and take a break! just sit down and have coffee or take a walk without any destination in mind.

happy easter y'all

hey hey! just dropped by to wish y'all happy easter! for those in aussie, happy easter break! though i reckoned most of us have assignments to be completed but heck, it's still a break from going to uni right? at least you can work at your own pace, sleep and wake up anytime you want too! as for me, yes, have to be writing my literature review by monday! ahaha! i'll be back end of the week! till then, take care!! muakz muakz!

what it all comes down to.

i've not been having a streak of luck this few days. first it was the fact that my dell laptop has weird dimensions which led me to believe that it could fit into a crumpler notebook case. it would actually fit if not for the 1 cm wider in the middle due to its curvy design! cuz the smart me measured the sides thinking that it's all square and all. but heck, at least eugene's computer could fit in it because his new laptop has the widescreen dimension. it hugs perfectly! and it's too nice for me to go exchange it for something second best. ehehe.

on another serious matter, i have not gotten my visa approved due to stupid medical examination. i've waited two weeks for them to tell me i have to go for further check up because they noticed something on my chest x-ray. not only do i have to wait for them to forward the x-ray to another clinic where i'm supposed to be doing my further test, i have to wait for that clinic to sent me an appointment time. i think they think that their postal is so good that things urgent like medical stuff can just be sent through snail mail! so the stupid me went to tell my parents that my visa is still waiting upon my medical results and that they are suspected that i might have "tuberculosis or other diseases". now i have to make another doctor's appointment at the uni student health services hoping to do another chest x-ray or get a second opinion. tomorrow.

but don't u think it's kinda stupid that if i'm suspected of some sort of disease that they should clarify it as soon as possible. saying, *touchwood* if i do have something that i should get treated immediately rather than let it delay on? how stupid is that? so now i have my mum worrrying about me. i feel bad for making her worry. if i knew she would have taken it so seriously i wouldn't have told her cuz i'm sure she wouldn't be able to sleep until she knows exactly how i am. so with her stressing about me, i also feel stress! decided to not go in to st.vincent's today because not in the mood ar! =p

just want to get away from seeing other ppl reading their material which might stress me up more than i already am. i seriously hope that nothing is wrong with me. by the way, do u know that the BCG shots we took? it's for TB leh. don't tell me the vaccine not effective anymore? or that i contracted some sort of disease from being at the hospital environment too much? sienz....