learning to live

finally done with the last paper for the sem. comment? this time i really think i won't be able to score for the paper. normally i would be like if i can get the border line mark then moderation will bring it up. but this time, i don't think that would happen. everyone around me seemed to be having an easy time answering the paper and why did i seemed to ran out of time. i was so tired from studying last night with just four hours of sleep but i was still okay during the exam. when i was running out of time, i got panicked, i almost blanked out, i couldn't think but thankfully it came back a little, not all but a little. you know how we normally can't remember every single point for the particular question, i think i would be more than lucky to have answered 50% of what the question wanted. now that it's after the paper, i don't even have the confidence to tell myself i did alright because it sucked. some questions i was too hurried to do it, i just drew a diagram for it. now that H1 is no longer i my grip, please pray for me that i get H2. thank you!

after the paper was so depressed but since it was the last paper for the sem, decided to go out 'jalan-jalan' in the city. nothing much to do actually because it was already 4.30pm and shops in city closes at 6 something. dropped by the new DIESEL shop in Melbourne Central, it was big but not as cool as it looked on tv. on tv it looked like a store concepted to look like a club! anyways, went walking aimlessly to release frustration, sat down for a drink which i called for mango pudding with pearls but it came with milk tea as well. ~weird. then went for dinner and walked home, walked home with the scare that someone might rob us because recently there has been a lot of cases of 'robbery' near the place i stay. what's more there we only two of us walking home tonight, two gals with a shopping bag who looked like potential targets. all said, i'm safe at home now. no point feeling disappointed over something that's over so now i'll be trying to spend my remaining one week in Melbourne where there's going to be a lot of shopping to be done! ~yeahz!

quotes

i've read some funny advertisement in the newspaper the past days due to the qualifying soccer match Australia vs. Uruguay. here's are some version of the quotes;

# free acting lessons in Telstra dome - referring to the fact that the soccer players always like to exaggerate that they were seriously injured by the opponent when there were just mere physical contacts

# Australia Socceroos vs Uruguay 'diving team' - at first i didn't know what that meant but eugene explained to me that 'diving' is a term referring to the action of the player trying to fake that they were injured even when there was not much contact by the opponent or sometimes they just run towards the opponent trying to 'cheat' the referee into believing it was the opponent's fault.

a line taken from the Hindi movie with so-called famous Indian actress that i spent three hours watching and not having an ending that i had anticipate;

"true love is about sacrifices"

my blog should be purple?

ah, i like purple too! but i'm just too stupid to change the code for myself and i like simplicity so white will do just fine for me thanks!

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

malaysian students mentality

we've been growing up with this mentality since as long as i can remember. it's not like the government didn't try to incorporate co-curricular activities into the education system, just that it wasn't really successful. you know how we were 'forced' to join like at least three clubs or something during high school, we would try to choose clubs that are not so active so that we don't have to get too involved or some would choose clubs that no one joins so that they can hold a position in the club and gain more credits. one club which was totally manipulated by those 'genius' is the bomba club! i remembered that so many of my classmates and friends joined that club and basically 'sapu' all the positions available. not only did they not have meetings but they earn all those additional points. unlike me, i was so-called editor for the interact club and i enjoyed fulfilling my responsibilities but because there's no such position in the outline, i only gained the same amount of points as any other ordinary member. besides that, in form 3, a number of us joined the chess club just to gain attendance mark. we would go there and instead of playing chess, played dam for less than half an hour and tell the teacher in charge that we had to open the 'koperasi' and she would sign our cards to show that we were present even for a while. in the matter of academic, the teachers always tell us that we would not be successful, get the job we want if we don't do well in high school. if you don't do well in high school then you won't be able to get into tertiary institutions. we've been drilled to score well since we were young, so if they suddenly tell us that we need to be active in other activities and good results just isn't enough, what they expect us to do? rewind time and go back to school and try to be more active in sports? actually, being active in co-curricular activities in school is just the beginning. even in uni, there's still a lot of chance to improve upon your leadership, communication skills etc. unfortunately, many people join clubs in uni because of the discounts they offer by just becoming a member. sometimes they even have to drag strangers to go to their meeting because it is the requirement to have at least 50 people in a club meeting. even now, i still think that it is important to get good results, you don't see someone who doesn't have excellent scores but active getting into the deans list, do you? also, when you go for a job interview, you would first be considered for the job based on your academic performance. then the added advantage that put you above other applicants would be that you have exceptionally impressive people and communication skills. however, as for me, no matter what i do, i'll still be working for JPA with the same pathetic low pay no matter i have good results or good social skills. that is unless they ran out of job and i have to look for my own job then i'm dead! there's not much potential for biotechnology in Malaysia, well at least that's how it looks like for now. it's not like the biotechnology sector will boom overnight right? study hard or play hard? ~ponderz

eww...gross!

what kind of time is this in melbourne? there so many insects everywhere!! where did they come from? my goodness, i'm surprised at how many there is in my room!! just shoo-ed a moth out of my room. hmm...i wonder, what are those insects attracted too? could it be they are attracted to light, like the ones back home? but the problem is i'm hardly in my room, what more turning on the light. ah, maybe they like dark dark place instead? whatever it is, as long as they don't poo everywhere in my room can already. ~ponderz

distractions

although so far i've been complaining that i'm too slow in my studying, thankfully it's still within the time frame that i allow myself to laze. i know it's kind of little to just do 7 lectures a day but somehow i still only managed to reach the target and not do more than that. i always find reasons for myself not to study. i know i still have quite some time left, since i have 5 days each for the last two papers. that's is also why i haven't touch those two subjects because i think 5 days is enough? i hope so, because i've been so lazy that i wouldn't be able to touch that two subjects now even if i want to. what's worst, i can't seem to remember the things that i read! the only thing i can do now is go through everything and hopefully try to recall as much as i can the day before the exams. i don't know why but i'm worried about my biotech paper. apparently, if i crap in the question, i might get penalized for that because the way the lecturer marks is upside down from other people. he sees where you've missed out or stated incorrectly and minus one mark for every mistake. you know how we're used to crapping all we want then they'll give you marks for the points you've identified correctly? well, this is like the total opposite! anyways, hopefully if i just get the borderline mark for all the questions i'll still be able to get good results? kind of eagerly waiting for the lecturer to return our assignment so that if i do well i don't have to stress so much, but if i don't then die!! haven't been going to the library the past few days, too lazy, too sleepy, not in the mood to study. even if i reach the library, i'll feel sleepy! but hanging around at home is not good either, too many distractions. i can't concentrate with my bed just beside me, my eyes feels blurry [i think my vision worsen again], tv on the whole night and snacks, i need snacks!

on another matter, while i was onlining just now, wasting time as usual, i read upon a funny news in The Star. it said that people in singapore are putting the criteria that they don't want maids with mole! isn't that bizarre! their excuse is that maids with mole have a greater tendency to do something bad to their employer i.e. kill them? what's kind of nonsense is that? so if i can't get a job when i graduate i can't be a maid either? ahaha!! i've heard many versions of people with mole has a big appetite, are talkative etc etc but nothing related to murder. i don't believe i have a greater tendency to kill as the rest of you except if you're talking about creepy flying crockroaches! ~yikez