how did i turn out the way i am?

Here, I'm refering to how I've become so dependent on others in many ways, especially the part where i needed someone to be there for me emotionally and physically perhaps. Once i was a cheerful girl with nothing to care in the world. All this changed when i decided to explore this other side of the world i.e. to be in a relationship. That experiences have really mould me to the way i am in terms of this aspect. I can be independent in any way i want to, but now, i will always be dependent on others when it comes to emotions, someone to hug and to comfort me when i'm down. I've become a needy. I'm not proud of it but it can't be helped. I no longer have the confidence to stand alone. I guess that's y those who knows me, will know that my status have been "in a relationship" instead of "single" for the majority part of my life ever since that very faithful 12 Feb 99. Yet, i do not regret to have learned so much from all these but will the game of love destroy me? Guess we will never know till the day comes.

May luck still be with me

I will be having my Genetech prac test tomorrow. It's worth 10%. The procedures and calculations are simple but i hope i don't panic too much and screw up the whole thing. As to why i need all the luck i can get is that, even though i may be good with the apparatus and all, somehow during the practice run i didn't yield a very good result. I did the whole experiment twice and still got exactly the same answer. So i thought, it could have been the error of the pipette and i changed the pipettes before i left the lab. But knowing that my lab is on Wednesday and on every other days there are people using the same lab, everything might get jumbled up again and my lab partner and i might end up with that jinx pipette again. Pls pls, let me get an accurate result for my experiment and may i not be nervous tomorrow. Everything will be ok if i just takes things one step at the time. *hands, don't shake during the experiment*
Note to self:
# Check if the wave;ength on the machine is 595nm
# Check that the printer is on
# Check that the graph option was set to quadratic and the light is VIS
# Check that the spectrophotometer is set to the maximum height
# Prepare 2 reagent blank
# Make enough diluted unknown...make two sets of dilution, just in case
# Always add water before adding reagents

Wish me luck and pray for me ya? Thankz!

housewife in the making

Signs of a housewife in the making:

^ Doing groceries and marketing

^ Cooking dinner for 'family'

^ Ironing clothes

^ Folding clothes

^ Washing clothes by hand

^ Cleaning the toilet

^ Cleaning the kitchen

^ Vacuuming the floor

^ Clearing the rubbish

and more cleaning...

what joy and luck!

If everything was meant to be the way it was, i wouldn't even be here writing this. I'm just so delighted that luck was with me this time. Before i mention the good news, i would have to describe what i was supposed to go through this week. First of all, i just found out yesterday that i still had so much marketing readings to read to complete my online test which i could have access to at anytime between wednesday till friday. So obviously i couldn't do it on wednesday because not yet read finish and i had a whole full day of class and lab equating to tiredness. So then i was sleeping from like 10 pm till 2 30 am. So i thought i should try to suffer and read most of it before i head back to bed again. Then since i had to online to check a mail [i'll come to this in a minute], gatal go and browse the management website to see if got any news regarding anything at all. And guess what i found?

On-line Test - 2
Dear 325-101 Managing People and Organisations Students,
Please note the on-line test 2 is not ready. This on-line test will open on Thursday, 19 May at 8:00am. This on-line test will be open 24 hours a day until Sunday, 22 May at 5:00pm. Liza Bishop

I guess i should also make clear how much i had to read just to score well enough for my online test. At first i thought it would be easy, because they did state the two same chapters from the textbook as the one for the previous test with the addition of marketing readings. Then okay, 1st marketing lecture reading, 20 pages ; 2nd lecture and 3rd lecture, roughly the same as 1st; last lecture, two articles - one with 20 pages and the other? 40 pages!!!? WHAT? DId i say 40? Yes! Such wonder i thought, so was struggling to read as much as i can [was suppose to finish reading by Wednesday night so can do it on Thursday]. Thank god!! Thank god i received that mail!

So now i can take my own sweet time to read again. Next thing due, CAI tutes for Biochem...Friday...and not even started. Monday...due Quiz 2 for Biochem. Now, i need to learn time management. Although luck was with me, i should not slack off and leave everything to weekend! Promise!

low in cash...low in motivation

i've been low in cash for this week, somehow sort of spent more than my budget for the week during the weekend itself. Haih, how money just goes missing everytime u withdraw it. Come to think of it, i don't really have much cash to eat out or buy things that i want or saje want to buy because it's cute or nice. See, every week groceries and marketing sum up to almost 30 to 40 dollars, so if i budget only 50 dollars a week, then i only have 10 to 20 dollars remaining. Then i eat in uni for like 2 or 3 days [depending on how much money i got], at least like 12 dollars there i think. Imagine how poor i am, sometimes so sleepy and need a coffee, but not willing to spend so much, so in the end buy coffee from Donut King and get 2 free cinnamon donuts. Just enough to last me til the end of the day. Then we normally eat out on Friday, just nearby though, because so many people want to watch American Idol at 7.30pm. So sad to say, i believe that every week i spend more than what i budgeted for. Water bill haven't pay, 40 dollars, electric bill 70 dollars, phone bill [by credit so don't care]. But obviously it's all divided by two cause sharing with my housemate, Frances ma. Everytime compare bills with Eugene and Faiz somemore, their water bill 20 dollars, electric bill 50 dollars.

Potential reasons for differences in water bill:

^ Do not cook cuz they cook and eat dinner at our place

^ Therefore do not need to clean the dishes after dinner

^ Do not wash their own clothes = use washing machine for everything

^ Clean up cups laying all around the place probably twice a week [coffee cups everywhere]

^ Guys got short hair so don't need to waste water to rinse off the shampoo

p/s: Is that enough to account for the double amount in water bill?

Potential reasons for differences in electric bill:

^ Does tv not sonsume any electricity? [they have a tv and we don't but why their bill so low?]

^ Does electric piano consume electricity? [Frances plays piano everyday]

^ Does leaving the laptop and computer on consume electricity? [the gals do but the guys got no internet so don't need to use computer]

^ Does the fumehood run on electricity?

^ Water heater? Cuz we bath longer so should use up more also right?

When i say low motivation i was referring to studies. Still slacking off in studies, no motivation as usual, and always feel sleepy when it comes to studies. What's more i think i'll flung management cuz stupid tutor gave me low marks in my assignment that is worth 30%. I thought i did better than the marks she gave me. By the way, more geram that my assignment wasn't mark by my tutor. Stupid lady don't know how to read English! Keep on say my "sentence does not make sense". Stupid!! What's worst is that i put in so much effort into this assignment and this is what i deserved? Not like they said that i'm totally wrong, i guess i'm just not good enough huh!? So gave up hope on my management subject liaoz. Stupid ppl who ask me to take management! I hate management! I don't need to learn to be a manager, my dad didn't so why should i?

full...very full

Just came back from dinner and feeling very very full. Why? 1st we went to eat duck at pacific house then we went to eat gelati from freddo. It was an outing with 10 of us. Wanna know what's so funny about the outing? Well, first of all, maybe it's because there were 10 of us, more than enough to make noise at the restaurant. So we decided to order 2 WHOLE DUCK plus 4 other dishes. Then the waiter was like, "U mean two plates?" but we had to emphasize that we want the whole duck. Then, first not enough soup, then not enough rice, then the duck didn't come. So we asked then they told us that it was still roasting. So 1st came one duck, we were almost finished when we thought where's the other duck? Although honestly, i think one was just enough for me but the guys claimed that they still can eat. Then we had to asked again for the other whole duck, i think they were thinking that we might not be able to eat anymore. When the 2nd portion came, we almost couldn't eat finish cuz there's quite a lot. But because we didn't want to lose face, we "forced" ourselves to finish it. Ahh! So full, but so full already still got eat gelati worr!! Fat ar!! Durian gelati yummy!!

Hello

Hello everyone,
My name is Silly!! *waving hands* Have any idea why my owner named me Silly? Try looking at the photoz, I guess you would have figured it out. Yes, it's not my fault that i have a silly grin on my face, is it? By the way, I love shaking my head too [which makes me look even more silly aka bodoh bodoh]. Can't help it, that natural too...blame the people that manufactured me if you want to. I love my new home because i have a lot of "friends" here!! But too bad for them they are not as cute as me.