Craze for Starbucks

today has been based on impulse. planned to wake up early to go have breakfast before heading to uni but was too cold, didn't want to wake up. so I slept till late. when I finally decided to get out of bed, crossed fingers, when into the shower and yes!! it's working! shh...I went through almost a day without shower. so I thought, better do something from home then go uni for lab meeting. checked mail, tadaa! lab meeting cancelled. woo hoo! now what? because I know I won't be doing work from home, it's too cold and dark inside the house, so decided to head off to my favourite place, Starbucks!

so here I am! supposed to be doing work but as usual. finding distractions even without internet. see see, Microsoft Word 2007 has blog post function. just testing it out. plus I wanted to blog about Starbucks. the one in the city has a mezzanine level and lots of comfy couches. i'm sitting here at my favourite spot with my cup of double mocha macchiato on my laptop in my vain attempt to do some work. in the mean time getting distracted with everything. great ambience, great view. well, generally observing people. mostly Asians hanging out reading or chatting or doing work. occasional Caucasians doing the same. some businessmen don't know talking about what. mostly people dropping by for a take away. very busy joint indeed.

I like doing work in Starbucks because I can have my favourite coffee any time of the day then sit here for ages trying to get some work done. even if I end up not doing much, I know it would have been more than what I would have done if I was home. plus they have abundance of plug points so don't have to worry your notebook ran out of battery. they actually have internet too but I don't want to pay for it. internet will just make me more distracted from work, don't you think? think I better get some work done or else it will be a waste of 5 bucks for my coffee.

 

Do try it, Starbucks Double Mocha Macchiato, it's yum be it cold or hot!

somewhat familiar

just had this very familiar feel while streaming some movie. it just sends tingles down the spine when you think about it. somehow this situation in the movie brought upon a sense of dejavu. sometimes i think i watch too much drama that clouds my judgement on what is real. anyhow it goes something like this. literally translated the situation is where two person who have been through so many obstacles in their life trying to be together, ended up not being able to fulfill their dreams because of just minor misunderstanding which excalated. i guess at some point in time everyone would have went through something similar. to me, this sort of situation seems to appear in drama or movie too often. so often that when it occurs, it just makes me wonder. wonder why does it get processed in my mind differently. my mind seems to put too much emphasize on it. perhaps it is a reflection of what happened in my life. personal connection. arbitrary.

what do you think is underground?

i wonder what's beneath the ground !? these are the flowers growing in our backyard. needless to say, we don't water them ever! nor do we fertilize them. but these flowers seem to grow beautifully! the red ones grew on a tree that used to have fruits that looks like peaches or apricots. now it looks like a cherry blossom tree.

spring is in the air!

once upon a fine weekend

i was so excited when i saw this restaurant! how often do you see someone with the surname KHONG, what's more a restaurant! =)

aren't they the cutest thing ever? the agouti one is super friendly while the brown one is super 'kepoh'. shy shy but want to follow people around. then when you try to touch it, it run away!

another cutie pie. i think it's a goat? but super fluffy! then also very curious creature, tried to climb up the fence to sniff people's hand!

chocolate heaven! one of the chocolates on display, too bad it's not for eating. it was for a chocolate handicraft competition. i voted for this one of course!

bendigo was once a mining town. so it's not surprising there used to be chinese people there. follow the money, people!

this is 'loong'. apparently it's like one of the oldest dragon in the world! but what is it doing in bendigo, australia?

sacred heart cathedral

one of the most amazing structure i've came across so far. perhaps it was because its size. majestic.

p/s: it was really hard to take a good pic considering i don't have a tripod. it's at night. it was freezing cold. and raining.

i hate my blog!!

argh! how i hate my blog! just went i find so hard for a nice template, it always get fcuked up. now can someone please design a template for me that won't go KO? pretty pweese?

how was your weekend?

well, my weekend was fulfilling! started off the day doing my laundry (yes, this is what people who don't stay home do) then decided to bake something so i baked apple loaf. almost finish one already! then i became home hairstylist for the second time! ok ok, maybe not hairstylist, home barber? ahaha! and this time around, i think it looks nice! can pass as amateur barber leh! ok, not on my own hair of course, on eugene's hair. he's been bugging me to cut it for like months now and i finally did it again. i dread it initially because the last time i cut for him it turned out rather funky! so, what else, went shopping today but as usual end up buying nothing much. went to footscray for random beef noodle soup craving and the plan was to walk around looking for a shop that is open where there's is a lot of people eating noodle soup. which we did managed to find a good one! yumz!! i think i could have ate another bowl (that's just what i think). rather cold day today but the noodles does help warm me up inside! now, prolly have to start cleaning my room a lil. no space to do productive work. ta!

celebrations!

i hate spam!

yes. i hate spam! you know how normal email service providers like yahoo or gmail will sort out those mails that they think is spam or junk and normally it's quite accurate except for the occasional friend's email getting lost in the pile. but i tell you, this university mail of mine, very stupid eh, i think got more junk mail that actual emails! i already set the security level to higher than normal and yet so much rubbish comes my way. i don't quite understand how does my unimail get caught in the network of junk mails anyways. not like i simply go use my unimail to subsribe to stuff or anything. i hardly even use it. so since i forwarded the unimail to my yahoo account, everyday i'm bombarded with ample of junk! junk i tell ya! and there doesn't seem to be anything i can do about it. i actually thought of sending an email to the IT people in the uni see if they can help me sensor junk mails but to imagine so many people wanting them to do that they would have been overwhelmed! guess i have to live with it until i leave melbourne university. the good thing is i check my email like a million times everyday since it's work or uni related, so i can just delete them as i carry on with my daily life. oh but think of it, if they ever sent me junk mails about job offer, maybe that will catch my interest? anyone wanna offer me a job? just email me!

i like! u like?

there! how is this one for a change? of course i just cut and paste most of the things from the original template because i can't be bothered or more like don't have the time to make my own. i can barely find the time to blog.

i think i must be too pre-occupied with sleeping! thinking of work makes me tired. when i tired i feel like sleeping. sleep so that don't need to think about work. see the vicious cycle? i'm beginning to think am i cut out to be in research? i may be good with studies, well, even that i'm not excellent but in the field of research, good doesn't seem to be enough. i'm "excellent" according to my supervisor. everyone in my lab likes me. i like being there too! really helpful and diverse personalities in just one lab. but do i really like what i'm doing? i think this must be the negativity talking. i hate it when the results is not what it's meant to look like. sometimes i think too much.

now now, let's think of the positives. i'm almost finish with honours. just another 3 more months and it's over! at least for this year that is. i admit i'm a slacker that's why i like this field. at the moment i can come in anytime and leave at anytime. if i had a 9 to 5 job, i don't think i'll be able to stand it! i'll have to have like 3 coffee breaks per day!

i need to be more hardworking from today onwards. my motivation to be great not just good. sometimes i put pressure on myself but this is what you got to do to achieve great things. i should still believe that the amount of effort you put into your work pays off at the end of the day. though it may not be always through but it is most of the time.

play hard, work hard!

temporary out of service

my...i'm so bad with the template and code and html stuff. so the background will temporary be in revision. now it's plain old boring background.

3 years and counting

happy anniversary my dear! though sometimes you may be the most annoying person in the world, it means something to be able to share our life journey together. if anything, we're growing and learning all the time. i used to be one of those people who says i like you for who you are but i think in a relationship you have to learn when to adapt. when to evolve. when to give in. the funny thing is that we tend to learn each other's habit. name callings. expressions. at the end of the day, not knowing who started it! and i like it whenever you surprise me with those little things, those little things that i mentioned once upon a time ago and you still remember. yet i still doubt you think what i do for you is special. since you can't even remember the important events. you may not be the most romantic person in the world but i guess you just have a different way of ticking.

but you're still the worst housemate i ever got! but because i'm so kind, or perhaps, i can't stand the mess, i clean up after you. should not pamper you so much, you know? after become habit eh. three years, is that long? does time really say it all? to me, it doesn't. there's still so much to learn. there's still so much we could improve on. sometimes you just want to be naive and think you'll just get into a relationship and it'll be prefect the way it is. how often do you get that? i'm sure there's always ups and downs. though it's my bad that i always remember the bad things clearer but i would definitely say there's more ups than downs at the moment.

stuff it.

stuff it. i'm not good at writing and all sorts. i seriously don't have creative juice flowing within me. no wonder i'm not an artist. or an architect. or a pianist (or in my case, electonist maybe?) or any other sort of thing that needs creativity. i like art-y stuff. i love them all. but i'm just not good at any. i admire those who can, those who are, i really do. sometimes even envious at their abilities. wonder what i could blame on me being the way i am? perhaps i'm not good at writing because i don't read much. if i don't read, i don't stimulate my mind often enough so i won't have the ability to think, to analyse situation impromptu. or maybe i'm just so dull. so dull and boring that i can't seem to find excitement in life. things that are worth writing about. but of course i still think it's me. because if i'm creative, if i'm capable, i should be able to turn those things that past me by each day into something interesting. if i read enough books, i'm sure i'll eventually get lots more ideas and inspiration.

any mocha lovers out there?

are you a mocha lover? if you're not, you're missing out! now i'm gonna try a lame attempt to convince you to like mocha.

coffee lovers say that coffee is meant to have the hint of bitterness. if coffee is taken sweet...there's not really a point to take coffee then would there? but then what about frappe and all that? hardly bitter one? what about iced coffee? traditional ice coffee got ice cream one...so also not bitter wat?



chocolate lovers normally like chocolate, solely. they have a hot drink not because they need the caffeine. but then sometimes chocolate can be too sweet right? and there wouldn't be much option to change the level of sweetness right?

but i love both, so maybe that's why i opt for mocha. chocolate-y taste with the dose of caffeine. not too sweet, not too bitter, just right. taste good hot or cold.

anyhow, even if you don't like mocha, it's your lost! but now the gals at st.vincent's, we're all loving our mocha! yay!

spotting fog/mist...

where can you see fog/mist?

• at genting highlands...only early early in the morning or maybe when's it's cloudy/rainy weather.
• at cameron highlands...but don't know now still as cold or not since i haven't been there since i was 10 years old.
• on the north-south highway...going up north...at wee hours in the morning...that's when my dad normally travel to balik kampung.
• when malaysia got jerebu...of a different sort
• during WINTER in melbourne...day...noon...and night...but then this is like a combination. eventhough foggy because it's cold but then still can smell smoky air wor...what does that mean? if so cold until got fog/mist how come can got smoke smell one?

there you go, the sign that winter this year is going to be cold. or it could be the fact that my house doesn't have good insulation. imagine how when u breathe, in the house, also can got vapour eh.

what's ur fav colour?

the greatest bunch!

i'm referring to our group of honours student at st.vincent's campus. i honestly think we're like the coolest bunch of students compared to those that are on other off-campus or on-campus locations! firstly, i would definitely say even though we're a much smaller group of students compared to other departments, we're definitely more close knit than others. especially the other four gals in the same student room as me, what's more two of them are actually sort of in my lab too! i think honours year has been great so far, with most assignments spaced out evenly and not too hectic, despite having to be in the lab or be around most of the days. i must say i must be one of the most slacking person of all! cuz i always come in late but i do stay back late when i'm doing some stuff down in the lab. other people their supervisor are sort of expect them to be there from 9 till 5. but my lab people, as long as you get your work done, no matter where are you it's ok. *grinz* hence the coming in late because i work from home late at night then next morning don't want to wake up! hah! did i say among the gals in the student room, i'm the only asian? so i'm really greatful that they treat me the same, just like one of them! we hang out, we have lunch, we go for coffee breaks, talk crap etc. etc. it does feel good to belong. like some of my friends because they're the only one in the lab, they don't really have people to hang out with, end up eating lunch alone, you know, stuff like that. of course i don't go and boast about how much i like my place la. what's more, i have a senior in my lab and she's doing Phd now so i always go bug her about stuff. ehehe...she always say "how come you all so happening one." i do always invite her to joint us but then i think she a bit pai seh. even though she senior but then she same age as the rest of us ma. but then she very hardworking so she doesn't waste time doing nonsense like us. ahaha! then got the RA in my lab, he's super super helpful! he moved his 'desk' from upstairs to the lab so almost all the time besides doing surgery, he will be on his workstation in the lab. always anything also go to him "michael..." "michael...". sometimes also pai seh every little things also go ask him for confirmation but then better confirm than do wrong right? i can't believe he's my mom's age! looks younger than that. also also, whenever i go over to the pathology lab for tissue processing and embedding, the people there very very friendly. always come and talk to me. ahaha..eventhough some of them i also don't remember their name but then still can chat! then i think they also don't remember my name so we don't ask and will not know forever! kidding! so i guess you can see that i'm quite happy where i am and i feel fortunate to be surrounded by friendly and helpful people. now the only think is...do i really want to be working on diabetes stuff for my Phd? if you get a project that you really interested in but then the people you don't know if you'll work well with or not for the next 4 years, is it worth while? Project or People? Project or People?

is it just me?

is it just me? it is just me who have close guy friends? is it wrong to have guy as close friends? do u think they always have utter intentions? but what if you've known them for years! do u think being friends for so long that they would still think that there's any sort of attraction besides being compatible as friends? i mean if there is in the first place and being so close would mean that that sort of behaviour would be told to each other honestly from the beginning. obviously, all sort of things would have to be cleared. or else would you have remains close if the attraction was not mutual? being able to talk about anything under the sky, being there in times of needs, is that wrong at all? does it mean that all you can have when you're in a relationship is each other? oh wait, if only i was in an all gal school. then of course i will have close gal friends! it's not that i'm saying i don't have any but it's the matter of compatibility i would say. it's just my nature. that people feel comfortable talking about stuff regardless of our gender. and i would love to think the same too. but what if it's too troublesome for you, would you still have close friends of the other gender? who would you choose? what would you do? it's just me. i just can't keep away from guys. hah! take that! and yet, i still care, i still care about what you think. even though it upsets me so much, so much it hurts. it is all worth it? why can't you just accept me the way i am? can't you see it's my nature...it's just who i am...

of cookies and cupcakes

when i have my own house...i wanna make sure it has a beautiful functional oven! i tried baking cupcakes with my malfunctioned oven today and it turned out to be more like cookies! nice and crunchy cookie top with cake-y bottom. what a disaster! i'm never gonna try baking with this oven ever again...why does it not maintain at the required temperature? i think this is worst than the microwave 'oven' we had last year. at least with the spinning plate in the microwave...the muffins would only get pulled towards the centre while it's cooking...but this one. temperature always gets too high...forcing me to keep opening the oven door. this actually affects the cooking time as well...and still ended up with crunchy cupcakes! cupcakes should remain cupcakes. soft and moist. not crunchy cookies. i got so frustrated at the end product...i threw it out...eventhough it pass for yummy cookies. hah!

p/s: now i think maybe that's a bit of a waste...since it was filled with nutella eh...too bad...too late.

does size matter?

among the cutiez

sunshine after the rain

i think that best describes the situation. it's so nice to know that not everyone is an idiot. it's so nice to know there's someone with a common sense. it's so nice to know that someone actually take their responsibility seriously. it's so nice that someone actually takes the effort to find out the cause of the problem. it's so nice to know that someone actually explained to those idiots of my situation. thanks to this someone, now i have my visa granted till march 2008. see, this someone is even considerate enough to make it till then so that i can have time to decide what i'm gonna do after i graduate. thank you so much! i cannot begin to describe my gratitude! i cannot begin to describe how grateful i am that you've saved me all those trouble in the distant future! thank you thank you thank you!

freaking unbelievable

it's freaking unbelievable i tell you! remember the stupid x-ray? well, it's back to haunt me for the rest of my life. i seriously don't understand what is their freaking problem! remember i said that the doctor said that my x-ray was fine? just some old scarring that who knows how i got it but it does not pose any risk to me or any other person. nothing that i can do about it and there's nothing to be done. now. because of all this medical stupidity, my student visa will only be granted till 4 september 2007! what the...! what's the point? and i went to the immigration thinking that it must have been a typo error since my enrolment clearly says till end of december...and they told me, "oh. because of your medical condition. it's only valid till then. and you have to make a new visa and undergo another medical examination when it expires...to extend for the remaining months"!! tell me...is that stupid or what!! so i have to pay another AUD 400 ++ for a new visa just for two months and AUD 150+ to go through another stupid medical examination at the same stupid place! i seriously can't believe it. it makes no sense to me at all...all i can do now is wait till anzac day is over and hopefully talk to the people i need to to see if this is reversible. all because of a stupid x-ray! super frustrated at all the idiots in the world right now...

i hate trains

why i hate trains? simple! because they are plain stupid. ahaha! although i hate them so much...i still take them because it's nearer to my house and it's faster to get to my study place compared to the tram. i hate trams too because travelling from moonee ponds to st vincent's in tram is way too long. it makes me dizzy because the tram keeps stopping. now back to why i hate trains so much. first of all, although i have the timetable with me i still tend to miss the train every now and then. if i come out late from the house of course i can't blame the train but there's this few times i came out just on time and i saw the train went off! no. it's not because i was late...it's because the train was early by two minutes! and it just left without me! then there are the times when u wait and wait then they announce over the PA "the train departing from platform 1 has been delayed by x mins. connex apologizes for the incovenience". there's another time they announced "the x:xx time train has been canceled due to act of vandalism". also sometimes they bring back out the super old trains with checquered sits and opened window! going through a tunnel underground with open windows! how cool is that? what about the times where the train is so so packed that you can barely fit in anymore but people still push their way in? i mean i can understand why they would do that because train only comes every 20-30 mins so if it was me, i would push too i guess? remember the saying "packed like sardins in a can" ? well i think this is much worse than that! because at least the sardins in the can still got water or oil to swim in but us taking the train during super super peak hours or when there's trains delayed, it's worst than being sardins in a can. i could hardly breathe just now. so so stuffy with all the tall guys around me. it's not nice to be packed up like that especially at the end of the day when ppl start to smell. no offense. i'm sure everyone does. coming back from work. so there. i hate trains. i hate trams. yet i have to take them. unless i have a car that is. ahaha!

what's with the new layout?

i'll tell you what's with the new layout! it was totally unintentional. i was just browsing looking for a new layout and how it would look like and the smart me forgotten to save the old template first. and not knowing that the new ones already saved! so i couldn't really be bothered to go try and look for my old layout again. hope you don't find it too much. ahaha! well, it's kinda nice i guess. bright and flowery. hmm...

what a week!

yes! finally got the first assignment out of the way! that five days of easter break was not even a break at all. cuz all of us had to work on our literature review which was due on friday. plus i was so smart to tell my supervisor that he's way lenient on us so he gave us a deadline to hand in a draft by that monday which i did...almost completed but worked my ass off and just almost managed to get the whole thing through...was too mentally exhausted by then. and all was good when it came back to me the next day with nothing but good comments. well, at least i know i was certainly on the right track and my easter break was well spent on my assignment. and and...this is the first time ever that i almost fully completed my assignment like 5 days before the due date! and first time ever i handed in draft copy! but yet in the end had to spend the next few days with the remainder of the paragraphs. and learned that i had to write an abstract too. and stupid endnote kept stuffing up! it was a frustrating period...but it's all over now! ahaha! well at least for two weeks i hope cuz no major assignments coming up for another two weeks! woo hoo!

and just in case any of you were still wondering about my medical condition...the doctor said it's all clear. but i'm still waiting on my visa approval though. even after approved i have to reapply for my working visa to finally get paid again. i have been working without pay for more than 1 1/2 months now. wow...when i finally get to claim back my working hours...i'll be rich again! as of now, i'm quite broke. i think i've been spending more but i just have no idea where's all the money have gone to. and no, i didn't spend it on shopping cuz i was too busy to go shopping. and no, not on movies too. no time. maybe also cuz i ate out more...no time to pack lunch...stay late so eat out. ahaha! but then how much can i be spending on food rite? and yes. no time to keep record of what i spend on hence the not-knowing-where-my-money went to. hah!

now all i can think of is. what should i be spending my time on now that i'm free!

i wanna watch movie!

i wanna go shopping! [but no money now]

i wanna bake cheesecake! [just baked today, cooling off for the night]

i wanna clean my room!

i wanna do my laundry! [which have been overflowing from the laundry basket]

i think i should just take a rest now...all the other things can wait. all i want now is to go out and take a break! just sit down and have coffee or take a walk without any destination in mind.

happy easter y'all

hey hey! just dropped by to wish y'all happy easter! for those in aussie, happy easter break! though i reckoned most of us have assignments to be completed but heck, it's still a break from going to uni right? at least you can work at your own pace, sleep and wake up anytime you want too! as for me, yes, have to be writing my literature review by monday! ahaha! i'll be back end of the week! till then, take care!! muakz muakz!

what it all comes down to.

i've not been having a streak of luck this few days. first it was the fact that my dell laptop has weird dimensions which led me to believe that it could fit into a crumpler notebook case. it would actually fit if not for the 1 cm wider in the middle due to its curvy design! cuz the smart me measured the sides thinking that it's all square and all. but heck, at least eugene's computer could fit in it because his new laptop has the widescreen dimension. it hugs perfectly! and it's too nice for me to go exchange it for something second best. ehehe.

on another serious matter, i have not gotten my visa approved due to stupid medical examination. i've waited two weeks for them to tell me i have to go for further check up because they noticed something on my chest x-ray. not only do i have to wait for them to forward the x-ray to another clinic where i'm supposed to be doing my further test, i have to wait for that clinic to sent me an appointment time. i think they think that their postal is so good that things urgent like medical stuff can just be sent through snail mail! so the stupid me went to tell my parents that my visa is still waiting upon my medical results and that they are suspected that i might have "tuberculosis or other diseases". now i have to make another doctor's appointment at the uni student health services hoping to do another chest x-ray or get a second opinion. tomorrow.

but don't u think it's kinda stupid that if i'm suspected of some sort of disease that they should clarify it as soon as possible. saying, *touchwood* if i do have something that i should get treated immediately rather than let it delay on? how stupid is that? so now i have my mum worrrying about me. i feel bad for making her worry. if i knew she would have taken it so seriously i wouldn't have told her cuz i'm sure she wouldn't be able to sleep until she knows exactly how i am. so with her stressing about me, i also feel stress! decided to not go in to st.vincent's today because not in the mood ar! =p

just want to get away from seeing other ppl reading their material which might stress me up more than i already am. i seriously hope that nothing is wrong with me. by the way, do u know that the BCG shots we took? it's for TB leh. don't tell me the vaccine not effective anymore? or that i contracted some sort of disease from being at the hospital environment too much? sienz....

just another day

i never really thought of chinese new year as something exciting because when we're back in hometown, besides seeing grandma and the lil cousins, cny is just a bunch of ppl hanging around in the same small house eating almost every single hour of the day, under the super hot weather. there always isn't much to do except for eat and dress in new clothes then it would be a load of talking nothing really. the man of the house will be gambling outside the house, the ladies either sleeping or talking or eating. but i guess all that is still better than not spending cny with family. this is the first year most of us are spending time away from home. when i saw all the new students who flew here just because they didn't want to miss the orientation, i say to myself, they should have asked seniors if the orientation was really necessary. i pity them for having to miss their chinese new year celebration just for orientation. well, i myself was having cny away from home as well. was supposed to meet up with eugene's uncle for lunch but eugene had a meeting, yes a meeting on cny! so ended up doing nothing but travelling around accompanying my friend to this JPA thingy where there was a new officer on the block! by the way, in case you didn't know, JPA officials seldom stay in their position for more than a year. don't ask me why. also, it was too hot to be hanging outdoors for the only celebration/demonstrations that was organized at Crown. well, at least we had a good dinner together! will be looking forward to the steamboat thingy that we're planning but haven't confirm with most ppl travelling back here in the next few days. steamboat steamboat!

everything new

just a quick update of what i've been doing the last week or so.

• went shopping first thing when i came back. it was fun to be able to buy cheap things in my size for a change.
• went ikea to buy furnitures for my room in our woody homely 'new' place.
• helped frances fixed up her study/computer table. we did it in less than 2 hours. not bad leh for two girls considering the table involved many complicated screws and fixtures.
• received my ISIC card so i don't have to carry passport as prove of age anymore. well at least for this year.
• received an email confirming that i got the honours scholarship.
• went to watch pursuit of happyness and loved it!
• got new speakers! real cute! dun jealous you don't have. ehehe...
• volunteered in uni for packing showbags for an upcoming careers fair.
• bought a cabinet for 30 bucks from reject shop. i wonder what's wrong with it for it to be in the reject shop. because it's made in msia or just plainly because the wood is so damn heavy for such a small shelf?
• paid my first rental today.

things yet to be done.

• waiting for internet to be fixed next week.
• waiting for doctors appointment to do medical check up.
• waiting for visa to be approved [after medical check up of course]
• start on literature reading. i'm so lazy that i still haven't started! in only two weeks time i'm supposed to be starting my honours already!

returning

just two and a half weeks ago i came back to subang and now there's only about a week left of my stay here. can't believe how fast time flies when i'm actually beginning to not dread staying at home and do nothing while others are at work. i'm just beginning to enjoy the sitting down and watch tv anytime i want, with all those chinese series on tv. calling friends to bug them to call me out. now that i'm only left with so little time, finally decided to call them out instead of waiting for them. i'm always doing the waiting and they'll just say i didn't call them. so why play the blaming game when we can actually be having a great time out! ahaha! it's only the beginning and i'm already going back! sad huh? objective for the week, meet up with as many friends as possible before flying off again for another year. plus perhaps start thinking of wat to buy to stock up for australia.

alone

i've always have people been around me all the time and this few days being the only person in the house, onlining with not many people to talk to, not being able to make a phone call because don't have a phone card, not getting reply for sms', not having someone you can call at any time of the day, not having someone who you can just say you hate them for no apparent reason etc. i seriously wonder, would i be able to survive alone? i've become so dependent, dependent on having people around. whether it's just their presence, or their conversations, or their irritations, or their physical and verbal support. i wonder how people actually live a life by themselves? they must have been really strong individuals. i have four more days to go and seeing that everyone's going back one by one just makes me wanna go back more. can't wait. really bored and lonely here that i have to call people to teman me go out or else i think i'll go nuts! well, at least still got roy who teman me to watch happy feet! great movie particularly loved the penguins. i think gloria's the cutest one when she was a small lil penguin.

well, i can always go out alone on a shopping spree but shopping can be fun for a day or two not the whole week. i can actually occupy my time by packing up my stuff but i'm too lazy and i don't see much to pack as i'm still using most of the stuff. ehehe...a lot of reasoning huh? or i could watch tv all day but heck tv's just an idiot box, i got bored even watching tv! *yawn*

do u like it roasted or toasted

yes. very very very HOT! HOT! burning HOT! no i'm not referring to me, i'm referring to the weather. "P today i think got reach like 38 degrees and even the wind was HOT. no longer the cool summer days that i mentioned before on my msn. and tomorrow's gonna be like that again! the only thing that bugs me is that my place got no air cond and too much window space so even if i close the windows and the blinds i can still feel the heat. maybe i should say that thankfully i'm still going in for work or else i'll be toasted in my own home. but heck, even going to work also i need to walk rite? walking under the scourching sun equals roasted me! so, do u like it roasted or toasted? i hate both! sometimes walk under the sun feel like want to pengsan like that. plus the sun shining so bright with the smoke due to bushfire making my eyes dry and tired. talking about dry, today was so HOT and dry that when i accidentally scraped my hand on the bench, it started bleeding non stop. now it hurts badly, not one finger but two fingers. bleh. tomorrow last day of work d, cuz everyone else is going off for christmas and new year holiday. so from tomorrow nite onwards, i'm as free as a bird! shopping shopping shopping! hopefully not too warm so i can shop peacefully. wait, not for myself but for those people back home mind you. ehehe. spending money like water just because i'm earning an income. ")

on another matter, super excited! planning for our potluck christmas 'party'! for those of us who are here without family to celebrate with. should be fun! with loads of yummy food hopefully. as for me, i'm gonna be preparing chocolate fondue because my love bought me the chocolate fountain machine, choccy! *grinz*

jingle bells jingle bells

most heard christmas song this year has got to be jingle bells. first i hear it so much from this dolls that eugene bought, they apparently can harmonize to each other, a reindeer, a santa, and a snowman. though not too bad but due to the fact that it's made in china it's not as harmonious as it should be. then i heard jingle bells played by this old man outside lygon court whom we always give money to. then when we walked cross him he actually played a chinese song! and he even look like he already has the christmas spirit, seldom see him smile so joyfully! then today when i was christmas pressie hunting, heard it being played at melbourne central. i think maybe the song is catchy cuz you don't hear other songs much and maybe it might be too hard for children to sing along. talking about christmas coming soon, planning planning, hopefully our christmas party in the planning will work out!

on another note, do u think u have any siblings luckier than my brother? where got ppl got sister that go shopping for stuff to buy for her brother that she don't even go shopping for herself? ;)

away for the weekend

did you know? the irresponsible-not-organized lady called me yesterday and she told me got last minute people told her they can't make it so she called me and a friend to replace them just yesterday and the camp is today. i have yet to pack and am suppose to be meeting eugene soon who is about to finish his last paper in 10 minutes time. but of course i have to let you guys know that i won't be around during this weekend rite? ahaha..what if you're wondering how come never see me online or something? anyways. so i'll be away for camp until sunday. then i'll be starting work on monday. till then, cya and take care! will tell you more when i come back from camp because this will be my first time experience doing something like this. hopefully everything goes well!

is it the end?

wow. can't believe it's all finally over! hopefully it won't be some time soon that i will ever have to take exams ever again! better still if never ever again! yes. i'm graduating! unofficially i mean. end of third year of my degree but will be continuing with honours next year. so i'll prolly just gatal and graduate twice! cuz this year is with my friends who may or may not do honours while next year would be with my family around! it seems like it's going to be forever before i actually 'graduate'. as i've mentioned many times before, if you want to achieve something in the field of science particularly my interest is in research, i would have to at least get a Phd to be able to do independent research and not forever be a technical assistant or something. so if i were to continue on from next year, i would only be graduating when i'm 27 or 28! so old! ehehe. we'll see.

now that it's all over, i'm bored again. i have nothing better to do. was suppose to volunteer for a camp but they don't want me! irresponsible-not-organized-lady whom i told once upon a time ago and she agreed, i emailed her yesterday for the details and she tell me it's full! what the...!!but nvm, it's for the better i guess, i already have back up plan for the weekends.

my only task now is to go to work. and go shopping! no no, not shop for myself. have to think of things to buy for my brother. he demands that i buy stuff home for him but the thing is that he never say what kinda things he wants! "anything nice" is the only guideline i was given. while i'm at that, anyone else wants anything from aussie? =P

physical state of mind

firstly, i would like to update you on the condition of my 'accident'. and yes, it have developed into two small ulcers and two huge extremely painful ones. not only that, since yesterday i've been feeling that the back of my gum where the wisdom tooth is suppose to come out, it's a bit swollen. looks all normal but feels damn weird. the fact is that none of my wisdom teeth are out so i wouldn't know what to expect if it's going to come out. now comtemplating whether to just go to the chemist for painkillers or go see the dentist and waste 50 bucks to see if it's just an infection. perhaps it's due to the stress of not sleeping well and i'm halfway through exams? i'm not sure either. but i think the swelling from my gum is affecting my head. i'm having this terrible headache whenever i lie down and sometimes i have to stop what i'm doing for a while cuz i feel a lil dizzy. what's happening to me man!

i have like 6 days to study for two subjects. i can't be falling sick now. plus if my wisdom tooth is growing, what better timing huh! i need wisdom not a wisdom tooth! sheez. should i go see a dentist to make sure? or just take a painkiller for the headache so i can study?

whatever it is, i'm not gonna be doing much tonight. been watching tv. just finished my second paper today and i think i deserve a rest!

p/s: even right now, my head is 'banging'. any other things that could cause it besides the tooth theory?

stupid me

yes. yet another stroke of stupidity. can't believe it man. how can i bite myself so hard that now there's a huge bloody mark on my lower lip. cannot imagine? maybe this would help.

it's really huge for a bite that was done unintentionally by my stupid self. hopefully it doesn't turn into a huge ulcer then i wouldn't be able to talk again. or maybe i can look like angelina jolie? cannot drink hot drinks also after more bengkak. have u met anyone as stupid as me?

exams in 4

first paper in another 4 days. can't believe it man. it's already my last sem. though it's honours next year, but there won't be any paper exams anymore! yet, last sem still have 4 papers to take. i dunoe why i'm not feeling very very stressed up yet. hmm. is that a good thing or bad thing? anyways, will be busy until the 21st Nov. take care till then! prayers for 10, 13, 20, 21 Nov greatly appreciated! for a clear and focused mind! god bless y'all!

life's insane

life's insane when you're a uni student. i've always been a last-minute-person but this is by no way comparison to anything that i've done man! saturday i researched for material to write up my lab report. wasn't in the mood so i went to watch movie instead. movie was good though infernal affair was better because i rather see Andy Lau and Tony Leong than Leonardo and Matt Damon. so anyways, supposed to start writing my report after the movie and wasn't planning to sleep until i finish it. but the piggy me, haven't even finish writing intro cannot tahan already. so went to bed and woke up early the next day to continue writing. already behind time and only managed to finish writing the 1500 words report in less than a day. next, [did i mention that i was way behind time?] had to start studying for a test on Tuesday for things that i'm not even sure i understood in lectures. half semester of lectures to cover from Sunday night till Tuesday morning. it was insane but do to hard work and dedication [despite the time where i keep napping every 2 hours of studying] i managed to read through all the materials. test was today, in the afternoon and by evening we got back our essay test paper. efficient huh? wat to do, last week of sem so they wanted to give it back to us as quickly as possible as feedback. for the first time in my entire uni life, i actually got 0 for a question! siao eh! 0/6 that's a lot man. i was kinda surprise that the lecturer didn't even give me a pity mark. for trying so hard to answer a question that i wasn't even sure what they were asking. in the end, the answer was actually very simple. and we blamed it on the way he phrased the question. yeah. many other got either 0 for not trying or 1 for a right sentence. but i had to emphasize again that i got zero for writing half page of answer. =( i haven't crapped so much in a paper since management in second year man! but hey, no complain here, life's insane but what you expect from studying bioinformatics in less than a day? got another report due which i was supposed to do tonight but i'm feeling pretty drained up. wanna go sleep and prolly wake up early in the morning again. now you know why i'm online at weird hours? cya!

what is it.

is it good. or is it bad. that we think alike. that the only solution we can think of is the same. but it's not as easy as we think. if only. if only some things did not happen. if only some things happen. we're holding on. onto a broken dream. is it time to wake up to the world. to reality. maybe i just want to continue dreaming. things are always perfect in dreams. the place we meet. for those far away. in dreams.

do i think too much?

sometimes i really think i think too much. if u don't know yet, yes, i can be really complicated. in terms of what's happening in my life, in my past. it always ends up being the same thing again and again. i wonder if i could ever get over it? i hate it when i start thinking and thinking and one things lead to another, then end up, wide awake in bed. i hate that feeling. i hate being uncertain of things. i hate having doubts. if only everything is as clear as the sky! wait a minute, even the sky is not clear! i wonder, if i could get on with my life with the clouds surrounding my past. i truly wonder.

ok. maybe it's the the me thinking too much here.

It was three AM
when you woke me up
And we jumped in the car and drove as far as we could go
Just to get away
We talked about our lives
Until the sun came up
And now I'm thinking about
How I wish I could go back
Just for one more day
One more day with you
Everytime I see your face
Everytime you look my way
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
Ever since you walked away
You left my life in disarray
All I want is one more day
Now I'm sittin here, like we used to do
I think about my life and how now there's nothing I won't do
Just for one more day
One more day with you

where do i belong?

have you ever wonder, how can you tell if you friends are being truthful with you? in other words are they really your 'true' friends? i can't help but wonder. it's not like i'm a hypocrite or something but i do have friends who have qualities that i don't agree with but yet i'm friends with them. it's not like i have anything against them just because they're the way they are. but those are friends whom i'm not so close with so you just can't say right to their face what you don't like about them. now, my point is that what about close friends? those that you've known for ages, best buddies, your inner circle of friends? how well do you actually know them? do they have something that they don't like about you but they just keep silent over the years? sometimes i feel like i don't really belong. yes, we may be friends, assumingly close friends but till the time you tell me when you're sad because you're having problems, the fact that you thought about me when you're in time of need, till then i know i mean something to you. and that would mean a lot to me, to belong. i don't think the point of us corresponding through email about our daily life, uni life, working life etc. is good enough a justification of how close we are. even when we're face to face, sometimes i feel like we're just trying too hard to catch up and that's about it. no time for intimate details. then the worst is how some in the group are closer one or two so you end up telling stuff to some but not the rest. i feel like i'm always in the latter. where do i belong?

mission: muffin

muffin mission = success!

don't believe it's the first time that i'm baking muffins leh? ahaha...obviously i choose to take picture of the nicer looking ones la. but of course all of it taste the same, with lotsa tender loving care. can you resist it? orange muffins with millions of white and dark chocolate chips? yumz! for those in malaysia who are less fortunate, too bad! i can't sent it back home to you rite? nvm, ask someone closer to you to bake things with love for you ya? sorry i can't be of assistance. ~chaoz

delicious-ly tempting

i have this... now i'm thinking of getting this...

winter spring summer

sometimes i can't really tell what is the season now. one day it's freaking cold even when the sun is out, then another day it's as if summer's already here! other days it's just plan windy and when i say windy i really mean the wind is so strong that i actually have to stop walking just in case i lose my balance. just the other day i was actually strucked/attacked/whacked by the sand/dust blown towards my direction on a really windy night! lesson to learn while in melbourne, never trust what you see outside your room window nor how the wind felt like when you stick your hand out. always check the weather before you head out and estimate what time you'll be heading home because you may be going out on a bright and sunny warm day but coming back to a cold and windy night. so always be prepared for the worst. thank goodness i wore my jacket out today. *winkz

counting the blessings

i consider myself quite lucky. okay, i'm not too sure if 'lucky' is the right word to use but i think we all know what it means right? well, everytime when i bump into someone and they ask me where i'm going and when i say i'm off to work then the conversation would continue with something like that:

x: oh, where are you working?
me: at st.vincents [noticed puzzled look on x's face]...in the medical lab.
x: cool! how did you get a job there!? [it's just something about science students and working in labs]
me: i got it under UROP
x: hey! i applied for that too but i only managed to get to the interview stage.

plus, it's always as if someone up there knows about my inner thought because everytime when i just think of how boring work is and i rather do something that sit down and get paid for doing nothing and learning nothing, miraculously the lab manager or the supervisor would be talking about what they thought of getting me to do! i'm grateful because i seriously going to lost motivation if i have nothing to do! so yeah, just today i was given my mini-project to do! excited! don't have to fill pipette tips everyday already. don't have to sit down and do nothing. don't have to walk aimlessly looking for something to do!

meeting up with the JPA officer, our sponsor, next week. i'm sure everyone back in Malaysia has heard about the increment in the allowance for scholarship students right? yeah, so that another good news but too bad it doesn't make much difference to me because my accomodation is expensive so in the end i get back almost the same amount. at least other people who are living in the suburb or something they'll have a better living standard thanks to the rise. another thing is that the Higher Education Minister of Malaysia, Dato Mustapa Mohamad announced during his visit to Melbourne that those that are still in primary or secondary school doesn't need to pay examination fees anymore! hip hip hooray! i'm happy for all my little cousins because since there are so many of them, it would safe the family a lot of money. by the way, i think there's some association of malaysian + free food/stuff = attendance! or at least it seems that way because everytime someone from Malaysia comes to visit us students, they'll always provide meal or refreshment. typical Malaysians?

long awaited holiday approaching soon! i was so eager for this holiday break because i think we've been taking in so much of learning stuff and a well deserved break. but i just realized that i have that major assignment due right after the holidays. can't believe when the holidays is over it's almost October! still, no complains there! have so much things ahead of me but heck, let's take it as it comes!

also, now that i'm working, i feel like i can enjoy myself more. yes, money is not everything but with that extra income i'm able to pamper myself a little. in the first place i'm proud to say that i don't need my parents to sent me money because i'm always a good gal, trying not to spend more than what i get but it's quite impossible yet i was still surviving very well because of the money i saved from 1st year. it's like the longer we are here, the more willing we are to spend money unlike 1st year where could u believe i only spend on average 50 dollars per week? thanks so much for this opportunity to earn some extra cash and experience at the same time! no one can ask for a better deal than this! can you?

i'm grateful to have such a lovely grandma. i truly believe that my inspiration and motivation to do research in the science field is because of her. i'm proud to tell lecturers that my main interest is research in the diseases of the 'ageing' population. i want every grandma and grandpa in the world, at least maybe in the future, to age gracefully, enjoying their every moment embrassing their grandchildren and actively spending their carefree days in good health. it saddens me to see some who become frail because of arthritis/osteoperosis/stroke and the worst is alzheimer's. hopefully sometime in the future, every grandma and grandpa in the world don't have to suffer no more! i know, even lecturers said that the field of science and research is not about making money, scientist are not rich and they'll hardly be. the main thing is the passion you have for the work you do. so my piece of advice, if you want to be rich, don't study science. take anything else but science. seriously, if you're just about wanting to earn big bucks the fastest way possible, don't take science. don't you realised that most of your science lecturer are super old and they've been doing their research in the field for millions of year?

right here waiting for you

Oceans apart, day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice, on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought we'd last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I cant get near you now
Oh cant you see it baby
You got me going crazy

I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance...

whenever i hear this song, i have this sad feeling within me. what can i say, i'm just an emotional gal.

to blog or not to blog

i don't think i'm a person suitable for blogging. to begin with, i'm not someone with lots of thoughts besides studies and relationships. at times when i desperately feel like blogging, i can't think of anything to write. that is why in the end my blog is more like a place for my friends to check out what's going on in my life. so i guess i can say that when i don't blog, basically nothing much interesting is happening? ahaha! i conclude that the purpose of my blog is to keep in touch with those who are interested in what's happening in my life while i'm abroad. what about u? why not find a reason to blog so i can keep in touch with you as well? or those who have blog...jot down your add so i can drop by sometime and say hi! one of the many ways to keep in touch i must say! you have a good day!

does it only happen to me?

why is it that when i accidentally bite my own tongue or lip etc. i tend to bite the same place over and over again? now not only can i not eat properly or talk properly because it hurts, i'm feeling puffy! plus i'm feeling bloated. at first i was wondering, why am i feeling bloated? not like i ate a lot or anything like that? then i realised, because of that stupid ulcer/bengkak, my salivary glands is over-producing saliva! stupid me! wanna know how i look like? imagine...puffy cheeks and bloated tummy! ahaha! how to make the pain go away?

enjoy-NYA

yesterday night went to Dracula's for the first time! not bad at all! i think it was really worth the money since the fact that we only paid half the usual price for the whole thing, a ghost train ride, three course meal, and the show. was there from 7.20pm until 11pm man! can't believed it was so long! that was the few hours that i wasn't stressing about my assignment. to my surprise, there was so many people at that place on a weekday! and almost every table had a birthday celebration. our table was our 'exotic' moham! *winkz. tonight going out with marianne for a good meal again, well i hope it's good. haven't really tried german food before. i have a feeling marianne's going struggle with the portions because my perception is that german food comes in big portion! been having lots of expensive dinner lately. like last week went to uni for the biochem student/staff dinner which cost 30 bucks. next week going for pharmaco dinner which cost 35 bucks. dracula's was 36 bucks. tonite german dinner on me. thankfully i'm working or else i wouldn't even think of spending so much! also, going to book tickets to watch cirque du soleil next year. wanna come? this is what you call enjoy, no?

uni student = stress

although it may be true that some of us stress ourselves too much over assignments and exams but isn't that the nature of what we were brought up to be? but i think this only applies to malaysian due to the way we were thought back in school. this applies fully to me! during times like this when the stress level is high, you don't have to ask me what's up or is there lots to do because it 'shows' on my face, if you know what i mean. like this lecturer today, when i asked him about my assignment, i was really worried the whole morning. i was worried how am i suppose to convey my ideas regarding the assignment to him? what if he rejects the whole idea and think it's crap? phew, thankfully he said that i was on the right track or else i think the stress level would have shot up the roof by now. i even took a day of work today because i wanted to work on researching materials for the assignment. what's more i have a test next week which i haven't touched. bleh. the thing is, he said that we students actually worry too much! hah! he's the one who's making the assignment expectation so high that a lot of us with no microbiology background is struggling to hold on. even those with good knowledge of microbiology is not quite sure of what's going on. we even made a conspiration theory that the lecturer is using us to get ideas for him to do further research in his field!

why torture yourself?

why would you want to torture yourself doing something that you don't actually want to do? why would you let someone else decide what you should do and when? why can't you have the freedom to choose and make your own decision for christ's sake? you should be having fun doing it and not think of it as an obligation. when it becomes an obligation then it doesn't mean much anymore right? just because no one is willing to step up to the play doesn't mean that you have to take every single responsibility as your own right? come on man...have your own say in the things you do...

how slow can i be?

i can be very very very slow! ahaha! what i mean by slow the amount of time i have to spend just doing my 'homework'. just the other day, i only slept at 7am trying to finish up a lab report that is due the next day. in the end, i was so tired that i skipped my 9 o'clock class just to catch a 3 hour sleep. then after that had to go for the prac class which i was feeling a lil bit dizzy due to lack of sleep. then realised we were supposed to dissect cute lil mice. kesianz...back to the topic, it's not like i started doing it very last minute or anything. i actually started doing it like on friday. don't know why took so long in the end monday morning only finish. ahaha! now u know what i mean by i can be very very very slow?

do i care?

if you think that i'm ignoring you, maybe i am. but i'm really busy this semester. finishing at 5pm plus everyday is no joke. sometimes i come back and i'm dead tired! so will end up keeping my assignments till weekend. but at least i'm trying to make something out of my life/experience in melbourne. i know i may have been ignoring you but that doesn't mean i don't care. maybe i'm just not good at expressing myself. doesn't mean that i have to contact you in order for you to drop by to say hi. maybe there are certain things about you that i don't like but not like you don't know. but hey, no one's perfect right? even those weird stuff you talking about elsewhere, i'm going to myself "what the..." whatever it is, i'm here even when i'm not writing. keep in touch.

6 weird facts about me

1. I hold pen or pencils with my thumb, index finger and middle finger! [marianne, maybe we're normal after all? or we learned from each other? hmm?] and i can also hold two pens and switch between both while writing notes.
2. I sleep with a comforter even when it's warm. Just because I like to hold on to the fluffy, comfy comforter! When it's too warm, I'll stick my foot out! haha!
3. I talk too much? That's what some people say but others, they say i look scary/fierce/lan si? Hey, I'm friendly okay? Do you think I'm scary? You don't expect me to smile for apparent reason while I'm sitting alone doing nothing right?
4. Apparently my name, if you pronounce it in a different tone, it sounds like something not-so-pleasant in cantonese. Go figure!
5. I collect lighters! By the way, I don't smoke just that last time when i was younger my dad used to bring back lighters that he got from pub or hotel overseas and it's fascinating! So if I see a nice lighter, I might bug you to give it to me! ")
6. I like bugging people. Especially when people tells you about something halfway and decides that it's better not to tell, I'll bug them until they tell me the whole thing. So you can say i don't like people to say things halfway and ask me to forget about it! Like i can forget about it? I always say, "tell me the whole thing or else you shouldn't have mentioned anything at all!"

whoa, that was hard man. imagine i had to write 10 weird facts about myself! but hey, at least it sort of makes you reflect upon yourself a little. what makes you different/unique from others.

can't think of who to tag because i don't know who actually reads my blog. tell me who you are so i can tag you! ahaha!

thanks for the wishes

as the title says it all, just wanted to thank those who wished me before, during and after my birthday! thanks for remembering and for those who noticed because of friendster, thanks as well for dropping by to send me a birthday wish. i had a great birthday this year, with the company of many of my friends having dinner in a really nice place. i hope everyone enjoyed themselves as much as i did! also to my hommies for the wonderful birthday pressie which was hidden from me during my trip to adelaide! also to my bf for searching high and low three consecutive days to fine something perfect for me. you shouldn't have, cuz i'm a person easy to shop for? or at least that's what i thought! thanks so very much! also to the one who called all the way from malaysia, the one who msn msged me because your phone was barred, the ones who sent me ecards and emails! you're such a wonderful bunch of friends to have and i'll cherish everyone of you! *muakz

on another note, i don't think i'll have much time to post things because of my very very packed schedule. for those who still don't know, i'm working part time in a research lab now! it's fun learning new things! can be scary at times as well but i have a good mentor! hope to catch up with you all sometime! lotsa love!

inspirations come and go

see what i mean? during exam periods or times when you're supposed to be doing something more important than blogging, that's when the inspirations just comes gushing to your head! but no, you don't have time to write because you're supposed to be doing something else! now that i'm so free and have nothing much to do, i just can't think of what to write. no inspiration at all! so there, that's why there's lack of posting. *blank

another sem

end of another sem. it seems like time passes really quickly when you're busy. i can see that this holidays will end really fast as well. when you think of it, 4 weeks is not really long at all. one week you'll be resting your butt off because just finished exams through the hectic times and need to recurperate from the tension and let the pimples clear away. i have so many things i need to do and without time at all it's going to be August! i better list down the things i need to do during this hols before i forget but i'll probably do that in my next post. through all those times of hardship i hope it all pays off. i really did work hard but like i always say, i can't really study things in advance because i can't remember it. i have to allocate those last few days before exam to memorize those stuff that i studied. i even had a thumping heart that caused me to lose some sleep on the night before the exam. when to exam the time a bit light headed. ahaha. plus 75 out of 100 points of third year subject would be taken into account for getting an average mark to get into honours. so if i managed to do well in this sem's paper, i don't have to be so stress next sem. since i will be having the UROP thing. and the SALP thing. must really really manage my time nicely or else i'll stress myself out for no apparent reason. plus have to plan see want to go where for holidays. i don't want to be stuck here in melbourne doing nothing productive eh. *in a holiday mood

happy daddy's day

"Behind every one of his Daugther's dream is a Father's love and encouragement."

Dad,
Your loving presence in my life helped me grow and learn,
and become the gal I am today.
Whatever I may achieve,
Whatever I become,
I know I'll owe so much of it to having a father like you
Happy Father's Day!

With lots of hugs and kisses!

i can do this

please help me get through this stage. i've worked hard and i just need to have a clear state of mind when the exam comes. now, i'm just so densed that i can't really think anymore. what i've studied over the past two weeks, i don't even know if i remember now. everything looks so strange to me. worst still, i'm feeling a little sick now. i don't know if it's the stress or the monthly sickness but i just don't feel well. my head is floating and i can't think right. but i know, this is not the time to panic. i can do this. i can do this. it's what i'm trying to convince myself to believe. much prayer needed. thanks. i'm not asking to score just that i don't panic during the exam and go blank is all that i ask for. i'm not taking a shortcut because i didn't study. i did but it's just too much and i'm all confused now. pray for me to make it through?

commotion over the wrong day

just in case you didn't know, father's day is not last weekend it's the coming one. 18th June and who came up with the dates of this things. why is mother's day on the 2nd week of May and father's day is not on the 2nd week of June? what the...and my dad had to make the commotion that i didn't wish him and i did TWICE on the phone but he so-called couldn't hear it and i was like "ah, whatever!" that's the stress talking. ehehe..i feel bad but what to do, i said it but he didn't here but how come when i talked to my mum she could hear me? then at night, when i found out that it wasn't father's day after all, i sent an sms to notify my parents. ehehe...so i guess i could make up for it this time next weekend. it's always a bad timing because father's day is during exam periods plus aussie has a different date so there's no cards available. bah! exams in another two days! can't wait because i'm sick of studying. 66 lecture materials in my small lil brain it's going to explode! and sales everywhere! i wanna go! not like my hommie like that...my goodness, the amount of things she bought, can wear for half a month with changing everyday and still have things to wear! i just like seeing, but will only buy if i really like it. so have to wait..wait till exams finish. hectic times starting soon!

things i hate about exam periods

* volcano erruptions!
* backaches!
* panda eyes!
* feeling fat from eating sweets to keep awake!
* feeling fat from drinking at least two cuppa coffee a day!
* feeling lethargic!
* counting the days till exam!
* worrying that i'm running out of time!
* frustrated over how much i need to study!
* worst still like as if i can't remember what i just read!
* how i hate exams!
* it just give me the blues...

picture says a thousand words

while most of the time we say that but i don't think it's always true. you know how people always judge others based on their appearance? especially first impressions. psychologists actually conduct studies about this kind of thing and it's somehow through that first impression is very important if you were to meet people for the first time. say if u went for a job interview or something, obviously you would have to look confident and reliable before they would actually consider you for the job right? in that case, it's kind of true. but say if you met a friend online. you've never met each other before but somehow you clicked right away! i think that's sort of the thing we seek for in a true friendship. something based on your inner beauty and qualities not just appearance wise. that's why i don't think it's necessary to put up pics of yourself intentionally so that others can judge you based on your appearance. what's worst is that some people actually go through the effort to alter and make themselves picture perfect through the blessings of technology but why? wouldn't it be a turn off then for those who liked you for how you look and when they see you in person, it's a lil different? so always be yourself whatever the circumstances is. if you don't look nice, then just don't put it up. well unless it's on friendster or something then it's different scenario. say if u were scrolling along the pages on friendsters and u happened to bump into a familiar name, then you wouldn't be able to visualise or even convince yourself that you know him/her once upon a time ago if there's no pictures. so in that case, it would matter to at least have one picture of you for identification purposes. well, it's that what friendster's all about? to keep in contact with old/lost/new friends? *grinz

woo hoo!

yeapz! finally got reply on my UROP thingy already! end of anticipation! i got in i got in! but still have to wait for everything to be finalised,when i'm allocated a supervisor for a project then it's time to truly celebrate. but i guess can celebrate early because it's not an easy task to come to this stage. so just have to wait till after exam and then meeting meeting, discuss discuss and if everything goes well, get an official offer letter! then i'll be employed while doing something that is helpful for my studies as well! wow, talk about "hitting two birds with one stone". now, must stop burning candle and start burning midnight oil! study, must study. resist temptations...tv...computer...comfy bed...NoOo!! zZzzz...

turn left turn right

that's the name of the chinese show i just watched on tv. you know how sappy love stories chinese movie always portray? you know how it's always like the no fate kind of thing where one person is just across the street and you don't noticed it? yea, typical agenda but when i was watching the movie, i actually got a lil emo for them! the WHOLE show was they're just meters apart but yet they never met. then one time, fate brought them together, they talked and had a great time and found out that when they were little, they actually had a crush on each other. love at first sight kind of thing. then they were both shy but the gal finally asked for the guys number but being the forgetful and careless her, she left her bag with his phone number inside! so they were laughing about that matter 13 years down the road. the this time, they exchanged numbers but it was raining, so you know what happened rite? both their numbers were smeared! from then on, again, they were so near yet they never met. the worst thing is that, they literally live next to each other. different apartment unit but sharing the same wall!! so obviously the show had like sad and sappy music, maybe that's why make people emo. towards the end, when they were both planning to move to somewhere else, they managed to hear each other's voice on their voice machine. thanks to a prank by their admirer who were jealous of them. somehow, finally the guy decided to try reading that smeared numbers one more time [suddenly earthquake! so drama!], got through then phone line got cut. but guess what, the wall between their apartments fell apart! and there, they finally managed to meet one another! is this what you call destiny?

anticipation

been anticipating for the reply regarding the status of my application for UROP. i was thinking so much about if i get it what i'm going to do, and how i might have an opportunity to do my honours with the institution i'm going to work for, etc etc that i think i might have jinxed the thing. still waiting though because they say they'll tell the results by the end of this week and so fast, it's already thursday! been checking my email like 3 times a day and still waiting...how i hate waiting. *bleh

creative improvisation

*broken slipper + huge stapler = one fixed and fully functional slipper!