enjoy-NYA

yesterday night went to Dracula's for the first time! not bad at all! i think it was really worth the money since the fact that we only paid half the usual price for the whole thing, a ghost train ride, three course meal, and the show. was there from 7.20pm until 11pm man! can't believed it was so long! that was the few hours that i wasn't stressing about my assignment. to my surprise, there was so many people at that place on a weekday! and almost every table had a birthday celebration. our table was our 'exotic' moham! *winkz. tonight going out with marianne for a good meal again, well i hope it's good. haven't really tried german food before. i have a feeling marianne's going struggle with the portions because my perception is that german food comes in big portion! been having lots of expensive dinner lately. like last week went to uni for the biochem student/staff dinner which cost 30 bucks. next week going for pharmaco dinner which cost 35 bucks. dracula's was 36 bucks. tonite german dinner on me. thankfully i'm working or else i wouldn't even think of spending so much! also, going to book tickets to watch cirque du soleil next year. wanna come? this is what you call enjoy, no?

uni student = stress

although it may be true that some of us stress ourselves too much over assignments and exams but isn't that the nature of what we were brought up to be? but i think this only applies to malaysian due to the way we were thought back in school. this applies fully to me! during times like this when the stress level is high, you don't have to ask me what's up or is there lots to do because it 'shows' on my face, if you know what i mean. like this lecturer today, when i asked him about my assignment, i was really worried the whole morning. i was worried how am i suppose to convey my ideas regarding the assignment to him? what if he rejects the whole idea and think it's crap? phew, thankfully he said that i was on the right track or else i think the stress level would have shot up the roof by now. i even took a day of work today because i wanted to work on researching materials for the assignment. what's more i have a test next week which i haven't touched. bleh. the thing is, he said that we students actually worry too much! hah! he's the one who's making the assignment expectation so high that a lot of us with no microbiology background is struggling to hold on. even those with good knowledge of microbiology is not quite sure of what's going on. we even made a conspiration theory that the lecturer is using us to get ideas for him to do further research in his field!

why torture yourself?

why would you want to torture yourself doing something that you don't actually want to do? why would you let someone else decide what you should do and when? why can't you have the freedom to choose and make your own decision for christ's sake? you should be having fun doing it and not think of it as an obligation. when it becomes an obligation then it doesn't mean much anymore right? just because no one is willing to step up to the play doesn't mean that you have to take every single responsibility as your own right? come on man...have your own say in the things you do...

how slow can i be?

i can be very very very slow! ahaha! what i mean by slow the amount of time i have to spend just doing my 'homework'. just the other day, i only slept at 7am trying to finish up a lab report that is due the next day. in the end, i was so tired that i skipped my 9 o'clock class just to catch a 3 hour sleep. then after that had to go for the prac class which i was feeling a lil bit dizzy due to lack of sleep. then realised we were supposed to dissect cute lil mice. kesianz...back to the topic, it's not like i started doing it very last minute or anything. i actually started doing it like on friday. don't know why took so long in the end monday morning only finish. ahaha! now u know what i mean by i can be very very very slow?

do i care?

if you think that i'm ignoring you, maybe i am. but i'm really busy this semester. finishing at 5pm plus everyday is no joke. sometimes i come back and i'm dead tired! so will end up keeping my assignments till weekend. but at least i'm trying to make something out of my life/experience in melbourne. i know i may have been ignoring you but that doesn't mean i don't care. maybe i'm just not good at expressing myself. doesn't mean that i have to contact you in order for you to drop by to say hi. maybe there are certain things about you that i don't like but not like you don't know. but hey, no one's perfect right? even those weird stuff you talking about elsewhere, i'm going to myself "what the..." whatever it is, i'm here even when i'm not writing. keep in touch.

6 weird facts about me

1. I hold pen or pencils with my thumb, index finger and middle finger! [marianne, maybe we're normal after all? or we learned from each other? hmm?] and i can also hold two pens and switch between both while writing notes.
2. I sleep with a comforter even when it's warm. Just because I like to hold on to the fluffy, comfy comforter! When it's too warm, I'll stick my foot out! haha!
3. I talk too much? That's what some people say but others, they say i look scary/fierce/lan si? Hey, I'm friendly okay? Do you think I'm scary? You don't expect me to smile for apparent reason while I'm sitting alone doing nothing right?
4. Apparently my name, if you pronounce it in a different tone, it sounds like something not-so-pleasant in cantonese. Go figure!
5. I collect lighters! By the way, I don't smoke just that last time when i was younger my dad used to bring back lighters that he got from pub or hotel overseas and it's fascinating! So if I see a nice lighter, I might bug you to give it to me! ")
6. I like bugging people. Especially when people tells you about something halfway and decides that it's better not to tell, I'll bug them until they tell me the whole thing. So you can say i don't like people to say things halfway and ask me to forget about it! Like i can forget about it? I always say, "tell me the whole thing or else you shouldn't have mentioned anything at all!"

whoa, that was hard man. imagine i had to write 10 weird facts about myself! but hey, at least it sort of makes you reflect upon yourself a little. what makes you different/unique from others.

can't think of who to tag because i don't know who actually reads my blog. tell me who you are so i can tag you! ahaha!

thanks for the wishes

as the title says it all, just wanted to thank those who wished me before, during and after my birthday! thanks for remembering and for those who noticed because of friendster, thanks as well for dropping by to send me a birthday wish. i had a great birthday this year, with the company of many of my friends having dinner in a really nice place. i hope everyone enjoyed themselves as much as i did! also to my hommies for the wonderful birthday pressie which was hidden from me during my trip to adelaide! also to my bf for searching high and low three consecutive days to fine something perfect for me. you shouldn't have, cuz i'm a person easy to shop for? or at least that's what i thought! thanks so very much! also to the one who called all the way from malaysia, the one who msn msged me because your phone was barred, the ones who sent me ecards and emails! you're such a wonderful bunch of friends to have and i'll cherish everyone of you! *muakz

on another note, i don't think i'll have much time to post things because of my very very packed schedule. for those who still don't know, i'm working part time in a research lab now! it's fun learning new things! can be scary at times as well but i have a good mentor! hope to catch up with you all sometime! lotsa love!

inspirations come and go

see what i mean? during exam periods or times when you're supposed to be doing something more important than blogging, that's when the inspirations just comes gushing to your head! but no, you don't have time to write because you're supposed to be doing something else! now that i'm so free and have nothing much to do, i just can't think of what to write. no inspiration at all! so there, that's why there's lack of posting. *blank

another sem

end of another sem. it seems like time passes really quickly when you're busy. i can see that this holidays will end really fast as well. when you think of it, 4 weeks is not really long at all. one week you'll be resting your butt off because just finished exams through the hectic times and need to recurperate from the tension and let the pimples clear away. i have so many things i need to do and without time at all it's going to be August! i better list down the things i need to do during this hols before i forget but i'll probably do that in my next post. through all those times of hardship i hope it all pays off. i really did work hard but like i always say, i can't really study things in advance because i can't remember it. i have to allocate those last few days before exam to memorize those stuff that i studied. i even had a thumping heart that caused me to lose some sleep on the night before the exam. when to exam the time a bit light headed. ahaha. plus 75 out of 100 points of third year subject would be taken into account for getting an average mark to get into honours. so if i managed to do well in this sem's paper, i don't have to be so stress next sem. since i will be having the UROP thing. and the SALP thing. must really really manage my time nicely or else i'll stress myself out for no apparent reason. plus have to plan see want to go where for holidays. i don't want to be stuck here in melbourne doing nothing productive eh. *in a holiday mood

happy daddy's day

"Behind every one of his Daugther's dream is a Father's love and encouragement."

Dad,
Your loving presence in my life helped me grow and learn,
and become the gal I am today.
Whatever I may achieve,
Whatever I become,
I know I'll owe so much of it to having a father like you
Happy Father's Day!

With lots of hugs and kisses!

i can do this

please help me get through this stage. i've worked hard and i just need to have a clear state of mind when the exam comes. now, i'm just so densed that i can't really think anymore. what i've studied over the past two weeks, i don't even know if i remember now. everything looks so strange to me. worst still, i'm feeling a little sick now. i don't know if it's the stress or the monthly sickness but i just don't feel well. my head is floating and i can't think right. but i know, this is not the time to panic. i can do this. i can do this. it's what i'm trying to convince myself to believe. much prayer needed. thanks. i'm not asking to score just that i don't panic during the exam and go blank is all that i ask for. i'm not taking a shortcut because i didn't study. i did but it's just too much and i'm all confused now. pray for me to make it through?

commotion over the wrong day

just in case you didn't know, father's day is not last weekend it's the coming one. 18th June and who came up with the dates of this things. why is mother's day on the 2nd week of May and father's day is not on the 2nd week of June? what the...and my dad had to make the commotion that i didn't wish him and i did TWICE on the phone but he so-called couldn't hear it and i was like "ah, whatever!" that's the stress talking. ehehe..i feel bad but what to do, i said it but he didn't here but how come when i talked to my mum she could hear me? then at night, when i found out that it wasn't father's day after all, i sent an sms to notify my parents. ehehe...so i guess i could make up for it this time next weekend. it's always a bad timing because father's day is during exam periods plus aussie has a different date so there's no cards available. bah! exams in another two days! can't wait because i'm sick of studying. 66 lecture materials in my small lil brain it's going to explode! and sales everywhere! i wanna go! not like my hommie like that...my goodness, the amount of things she bought, can wear for half a month with changing everyday and still have things to wear! i just like seeing, but will only buy if i really like it. so have to wait..wait till exams finish. hectic times starting soon!

things i hate about exam periods

* volcano erruptions!
* backaches!
* panda eyes!
* feeling fat from eating sweets to keep awake!
* feeling fat from drinking at least two cuppa coffee a day!
* feeling lethargic!
* counting the days till exam!
* worrying that i'm running out of time!
* frustrated over how much i need to study!
* worst still like as if i can't remember what i just read!
* how i hate exams!
* it just give me the blues...

picture says a thousand words

while most of the time we say that but i don't think it's always true. you know how people always judge others based on their appearance? especially first impressions. psychologists actually conduct studies about this kind of thing and it's somehow through that first impression is very important if you were to meet people for the first time. say if u went for a job interview or something, obviously you would have to look confident and reliable before they would actually consider you for the job right? in that case, it's kind of true. but say if you met a friend online. you've never met each other before but somehow you clicked right away! i think that's sort of the thing we seek for in a true friendship. something based on your inner beauty and qualities not just appearance wise. that's why i don't think it's necessary to put up pics of yourself intentionally so that others can judge you based on your appearance. what's worst is that some people actually go through the effort to alter and make themselves picture perfect through the blessings of technology but why? wouldn't it be a turn off then for those who liked you for how you look and when they see you in person, it's a lil different? so always be yourself whatever the circumstances is. if you don't look nice, then just don't put it up. well unless it's on friendster or something then it's different scenario. say if u were scrolling along the pages on friendsters and u happened to bump into a familiar name, then you wouldn't be able to visualise or even convince yourself that you know him/her once upon a time ago if there's no pictures. so in that case, it would matter to at least have one picture of you for identification purposes. well, it's that what friendster's all about? to keep in contact with old/lost/new friends? *grinz

woo hoo!

yeapz! finally got reply on my UROP thingy already! end of anticipation! i got in i got in! but still have to wait for everything to be finalised,when i'm allocated a supervisor for a project then it's time to truly celebrate. but i guess can celebrate early because it's not an easy task to come to this stage. so just have to wait till after exam and then meeting meeting, discuss discuss and if everything goes well, get an official offer letter! then i'll be employed while doing something that is helpful for my studies as well! wow, talk about "hitting two birds with one stone". now, must stop burning candle and start burning midnight oil! study, must study. resist temptations...tv...computer...comfy bed...NoOo!! zZzzz...

turn left turn right

that's the name of the chinese show i just watched on tv. you know how sappy love stories chinese movie always portray? you know how it's always like the no fate kind of thing where one person is just across the street and you don't noticed it? yea, typical agenda but when i was watching the movie, i actually got a lil emo for them! the WHOLE show was they're just meters apart but yet they never met. then one time, fate brought them together, they talked and had a great time and found out that when they were little, they actually had a crush on each other. love at first sight kind of thing. then they were both shy but the gal finally asked for the guys number but being the forgetful and careless her, she left her bag with his phone number inside! so they were laughing about that matter 13 years down the road. the this time, they exchanged numbers but it was raining, so you know what happened rite? both their numbers were smeared! from then on, again, they were so near yet they never met. the worst thing is that, they literally live next to each other. different apartment unit but sharing the same wall!! so obviously the show had like sad and sappy music, maybe that's why make people emo. towards the end, when they were both planning to move to somewhere else, they managed to hear each other's voice on their voice machine. thanks to a prank by their admirer who were jealous of them. somehow, finally the guy decided to try reading that smeared numbers one more time [suddenly earthquake! so drama!], got through then phone line got cut. but guess what, the wall between their apartments fell apart! and there, they finally managed to meet one another! is this what you call destiny?

anticipation

been anticipating for the reply regarding the status of my application for UROP. i was thinking so much about if i get it what i'm going to do, and how i might have an opportunity to do my honours with the institution i'm going to work for, etc etc that i think i might have jinxed the thing. still waiting though because they say they'll tell the results by the end of this week and so fast, it's already thursday! been checking my email like 3 times a day and still waiting...how i hate waiting. *bleh

creative improvisation

*broken slipper + huge stapler = one fixed and fully functional slipper!

things i encountered on my way home

* a purple christmas ornament hanging on a tree
* a shower cap used as a protector for a bike seat
* dry leaves and balding trees
* two men jogging in tights
* a pink sofa with white floral pattern
* chalk writings on the walkway
* a pink slip in the mailbox
* jammed lift that didn't want to open up
* a bright and sunny day

search in vain

searching...waiting...looking...
but it's not there...
so u wait...hope...search again...
in the end...why bother...
it shouldn't matter...
whether it can be found...
cuz what matters is what's in front of u.