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organization

so many clothes need organizing. first the clothes then the other random stuffs. my bears and wabbit are occupying my desk. where to put what and what to put where. can't believe tomorrow is thursday already!

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clothes are in order. now the pengsan part, all those tiny lil things that are everywhere!

back in melbourne...

...lots of things to unpack. it's like pratically moving house and on top of that with an extra luggage to unpack. can't seem to find anything right now since most of the things are in all random boxes. the first thing i did was to change the bedsheets and sleep! went to buy basic necessities and cooked myself dinner after so long. couldn't stop chatting with linda (my current hommie) who was kind enough to accompany me to safeway. and i ate san churros for the first time...yumz! and we both were planning to get new phone plans hence phone-scouting. too tired too do any organizing at the moment. probably keep that for tomorrow.

...time seems to pass by so slowly

it saddens me...

...to leave my loved ones behind.

of cocktails and more cocktails

went to bintan island without much expectations because read on other people's blog that there was tar pollution on the beach. but upon arriving, there was nothing but spectacular. i guess being the 'jakun' me who always opted for the most affordable accomodation, it was great to experience a four-star treatment for once. we were served ice cold lemon tea and cold towel upon arrival which was very refreshing indeed, considering having to travel all the way from KL-Singapore-Bintan Island. we didn't even need to carry our bags to the room as they handled all that (though we couldn't tip whoever who brought the bags to our room because s/he was long gone before we even stepped into the room.

this is the view of the main area by the pool side. noticed there's not much people around? (the people started pouring in on the day we were leaving, perhaps for a seminar). thankfully it's not the holiday season. there's a lot of other activities to do here apart from swimming. also there's the beach just a short walk away.

our double suite. loved the colour scheme a lot. well nothing can fail when there's dark wood furniture and bright coloured walls to bring in the holiday mood.

we arrived in the evening so didn't really do much that day because too tired and hot anyways. but it was sure fun to have free flow of cocktails and mocktails at the bars.

the next day we did all we could. we went to do some archery and then to the beach. surprisingly there wasn't many people on the beach also. and may i say there wasn't any tar pollution at ria bintan. though there was a lot of warning saying that "jelly fish is present at all time", "the beach is steep", "no lifeguard on duty". i realised more people rather hang out near the swimming pool maybe because most of the guests came with kids. then did some swimming in the pool, while being watched by the hunky lifeguard (who was praticing his dance move for the programme later at night).

overall it was a very pleasant experience. definitely thanks to my parents who won this trip from their CIMB lucky draw thingy. even the food was excellent! so much choices to choose from. you know like for breakfast how you would normally get the continental breakfast (egg, bacon, sausages, toast, cereal etc), this one even has cream cheese smoked meat smoked salmon bagel, porridge for the asian inclined etc etc. and the fruit juices were all freshly squeezed, not those processed crap. even dinner and lunch time always consist of western, korean, japanese, indian, and various specialities of the day. and we get to meet the employees there as well when we shared a table while having meals. according to all of the whom we asked, they said that Club Med Cherating is one of their favourite. more authentic, and special. so i guess what i'm leaving you with is that if you're planning to give Club Med a try, start with the one in Cherating. you definitely don't have to fly there and take a ferry just to get there. more convenient and seemingly better. like one whom we asked how many Club Med has he been, he said he's been to more than 10 within Asia Pacific!

i'll leave you with the picture of eugene taken in the only place worth taking in Changi Airport.

how can someone be so insensitive

well...i was listening to the radio the other night. there was this programme called "flirty at 10.30" where they will try to hook people up on date. of course one party would initiate the asking another out and then the radio host will call the other person to see if they'll agree to it. so this time around, there was this gal called allison. she was going out with this guy for a few times now and wasn't sure what they were in the "relationship". when asked if they were already boyfriend-girlfriend, she said, this is what she wanted to find out. so they asked her, if she actually asked the guy this question and she said he seems to be not answering his phone lately *get the hint*? so when the radio host got hold of james @ the guy, they were asking him if he wanted to go on a date with this gal who he has been going out with? then he started freaking out, obviously saying no and telling them about why he's not interested in her (eventough they dated). AND MIND YOU, ALLISON IS LISTENING ON THE OTHER END!!! so he went on saying that SHE'S OUTTA THIS WORLD!... SHE IS TOTALLY BLA BLA BLA...SHE'LL SHOUT WHEN HEARING A GAL VOICE CALLING HIM...anything bad you can think of la. asked if he maybe wanted to say hi to her, he totally said no HE DON'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING GOTTA DO WITH HER and even THANKED THE RADIO CHANNEL IF THIS WAS GOING TO BE THE LAST TIME HE'S GONNA HEAR FROM HER! so when they finally got back on the other side of the line with Allison, she was speechless then she hung up...from her shaky voice it was so obvious that she was CRYING!!!

so tell me, how can someone be so insensitive? if he doesn't like her, eventhough they dated a few times, i'm sure he can just tell her maybe they're just not meant to be or something right? but he chose the cowardly way of avoiding her hoping that she gets the hint. obviously if she's interested in you, she'll try her very best to hear from you right? i mean if you really like this guy, you're just going to ignore the unanswered calls or unreplied sms and comfort yourself by saying, maybe he's just busy? to me, i totally felt upset for the gal lor! it's just as bad as breaking up with your girlfriend ON-AIR! so EVIL!!

*wonder what would you think the next time you meet a JAMES in your life. maybe he IS THAT JAMES! BEWARE!

** this is a totally biased post based on what i heard on-air. maybe the gal could be a controlling freak of nature but she sounded sweet and he is still at the wrong in my opinion!

i'm feeling emo and i don't know why. maybe it's too many jumbled up thoughts on my mind or is it just the effects of the hormones. it just makes me wonder...is this just the beginning...of more emo episodes to come. i hate it when i'm unclear of what's bothering me...i just don't feel right. if only i have a shoulder to cry on....

was waiting for food at (Korean) BBQ Chicken

random shots

tag-a-thon

I've been tagged by Jimmy

Game rules:
A． People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.

B． These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people. People who are tagged will be blessed and their wishes will come true in the future.



1.If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

this would depend on how much that person means to me...partially. there's reasons for things to turn out the way they did.


2.What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?

then maybe it's not meant to be...but you'll never know...timing is everything.


3.What will your dream wedding be like?

never really thought about that before...really.


4.Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

maybe confused is not the right word to use...of course we don't know what lies ahead so maybe more of ready to expect the unexpected.


5.What's your ideal lover like?

someone compatible. someone who accepts you for who you are. someone who can be there for you at all times. someone understanding. (this would require a whole post if i were to list down everything)


6.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?

being loved. but it's all about give and take. you can't just receive all the time.


7.If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?

it's not the end of the world...if it's meant to happen...it will.


8.If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

nothing i guess...i'm not the most daring person in the world and i'm not gonna be a boyfriend-snatcher, am i? perhaps unless you know that the other feels the same, then maybe?


9.Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?

tell me one person who doesn't feel unhappy once in a while.

10.What do you want most in life?

happiness.

11.Is being tagged fun?

me no likey tags. make me feel obliged to do it. and i normally will.

12.If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?

then he/she is not your best friend after all? but was if my best friend is a guy...?

13.Who is currently the most important person to you?

hmm...i really don't know...

14.What kind of person do you think I am?

who is "I"? the person who tagged me? lame-o! ehehe...u know i'm just pulling your leg right?

15.What is the most unforgettable thing/event in your life?

unpleasant events... heartbroken events... a tainted past.

16.If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do/how would you react

i don't think i'll fall for someone who doesn't know me. unless it's just a crush then it doesn't matter really.

17.Would you give your all in a relationship?

used to but not anymore...people learn from experiences...

18.If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?

i'm not good with decision making...i think i'll just let things be and see what happens...

19.What type of friends do you like?

nonjudgemental. honest. available. etc etc.

20.If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?

i'm too kind to play a prank on someone.

i tag whoever who's interested in doing this tag. hehe.

what we need is

it's my space

and i like it the way it is. you can just go around changing things the way it is. without even asking permission. so you're just thinking for yourself without thinking that you're intruding into other people's life. just a reminder that you should be more mindful of others, next time.

i'm in major need for wearing jeans. i wanna wear jeans! i miss wearing jeans! tried pair #1: too tight. tried pair #2: ok but not comfortable cuz jeans material is tough (not good for wound healing). looked at pair #3, #4: definitely not. i'm not saying that i'm fat that i can't fit into my jeans ok? so i guess i have to thank god for inventing tights. next best option but it's definitely different. i need my daily dose of skinny jeans, soon.

i think i need to get back to melbourne soon or else i'll just keep on buying more and more clothes. but at least from the bkk trip, i never feel like shopping in malls d. because i'll just look see look see and think it's expensive. nothing that's so special that's worth me spending the extra money. what's more the fact that the same RM30 dress is selling for RM89.90 in sunway pyramid. sorta proud of our buy until now. *grins

on another note, what is it with this trend of oversized bags? and i'm not talking about those that's big enough to fit a sweater, a bottle of water etc. i'm talking about those you see around nowadays which seems bigger than me! if you chopped me into pieces, i would definitely fit in it (just a metaphore). like those that you can take and fit all you need for a weekend getaway. is it that practical for everyday use? wouldn't it make it easier for snatch thieves to grab it off your shoulder? *puzzled

my grandma is the best

thanks for taking care of me this two weeks. though you added more to the already long list of restrictions, i still really appreciate you cooking for me seeing that i shouldn't be eating outside food. i guess this is really a blessing in disguise seeing that i'm able to spend more quality time with family.

while i'm at it, would like to thank those who visited me in the hospital and to marianne who brought me more entertainment right when you feel better. and to those who wished me. thank you. i feel loved.

current mode

current mode: missing my sewing machine. if only i had a functional one at home. wow, imagine how many softies i would have produced by now? seeing that i've been back in malaysia since mid-jan. could have a fully functional production line and new range by now. yes, i AM so free and bored. you would be too if you're stuck at home most of the time, eating bland food most of the days. but now that i've got my router, i should probably be starting on that journal paper i'm supposed to write eh? no more excuses...

everything happens for a reason

i've always said to people, "everything happens for a reason". i'm sure something good will come out of all these. but obviously when you're the one who's hearing all these, you'll be like "it's easier said than done". no matter how small the matter is, you'll be deeply affected, or at least i am. at one point in time, i actually thought to myself, i don't want to pursue my studies anymore, this is too much for me to handle. emotional breakdown. must have been cause by everyone asking, "so your studies how (discreetly intepreted as, are you still gonna continue)?". then when i was feeling alright, i tried to think, think of the possibilities. if i didn't pursue this dream that i have, this great opportunity with free education, what would i do? will i be willing to find a job here and settle down, what would i do? i came to a blank. i know for a fact i don't want to end up in sales or marketing. i don't think i'll find a job suitable for me at this point in time. what's more, will i be so lucky to get such scholarships in the future if i decided to change my mind? of course, the first reaction from my boyfriend is, "yay! that means you'll be back here for longer!". most of the times i think i'm alright, everything's going to be okay soon enough. in no time at all, it's going to be time to fly back to Melbourne. but when I think about it, doctor's not going to let me go back for at least another 2 months. he wants to monitor my recovery. but at least that's still better than the initial plan of keeping me here till August. yeah, i have to go for follow up treatment once a month but he said that i'll be able to arrange something in Melbourne after the first two sessions. at least it's something. though i'm gonna be delayed for another 2 months, at least i'm back here with family, hopefully soon with friends when i can start driving, eating and walking again, to hang out. sorry peeps if i haven't been calling you out, i'm not supposed to be hanging out at the moment.

happy valentine's day

happy valentine's! spread the love y'all!

to the new beginning

a new year. a new beginning. i was meant to announce that i've got the PhD scholarships! thank you melbourne uni for believing in me (my project). thank you department of medicine for my placement. so rest assured that i'll still be able to further my studies without burdening my supervisors or parents.

too many things to be done in such short period of time. was accomodating my family when they were here for my graduation. then right after graduation on the 17th dec, off i went on a road trip to sydney with eugene's family. all expense paid trip. i felt bad because they didn't let me pay for anything. but at least i was a good navigator when it comes to reading map and a 'portable' camera gal. always trying to help them take family pictures but always end up someone in the pic blinking! all in all, i had great fun! even got the chance to meet up with my childhood girlfriend, jane. it was nice chatting up with her, just the two of us. was wishing the night could have been longer. and thanks jane, for keeping your night free just for me, knowing that you actually had something on. and also for staying out so late eventhough you stay so far! i've checked on the map when we were leaving sydney, that liverpool is indeed pretty far away!

been busy packing up stuff and getting ready to move as well. didn't even get about to writing a draft for the journal my supervisor asked me to. now i also don't know what i'm going to do when i get in on the 2nd jan. hopefully he's not mad that i didn't do my homework.

then i'll be off to tassie the next few days for a week. soon enough, i'll be back in msia!

merry christmas

merry christmas and a happy holidays to all!

softies

softies in production! came upon this book in the bookstore, it caught my eye and it was love at first sight! then i went on to look for materials. because sewing machine is too expensive, i decided to choose the easiest looking one to make. scan template, enlarge, print, cut cut felt, sew sew sew. because it was handsewn it took quite a while. and thus born, morgan the monster!

then to my surprise when i came home today, eugene bought me a sewing machine!!! whoa! so i made another one with the sewing machine this time. though i must say, i had to spend quite some time understanding the functions on the machine before starting with another. but i'm happy! we decided to call this one, the ninja!

the happy duo!

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i've made like 4 now. ninjas in production! maybe, just maybe, you'll be lucky enough to get one of these weird and cute softies eh?

but i feel sick today. production is halted.